Today would be the day that I would officially start my Wagon 1.3: Endurance Training. However, I've had some setbacks and I don't feel that I've really made much headway on my previous goal of strength training. It seems that when I do even the wimpiest of the strength training exercises, I activate some latent trigger point and flare up in pain. In response, I need to lay off the exercises for a few days. On top of the pain, last week, I dealt with some unexpected and unexplained severe nausea that cost me two vacation days of work.
I am not going to give up, mind you, just because circumstances have not been ideal. I'd be a fool to expect that I could just suddenly overcome all my limitations because I decided to. I do tend to forget my limitations, because I know there are things I used to be able to do (like daily exercising, household chores, etc.) before Fibromyalgia came and beat me up. Now I'm unable to do things I used to do, and it takes significant effort to consciously remember that I can no longer do those things - at least not to the same extent that I used to, back when I was "normal".
Such is life with the FibroBeast. I'm on a very short leash and pulling at it is futile. I wish I could easily see the extent of my leash, but it's something that apparently seems to vary randomly. I haven't figured out all the factors that determine how far I can go before I hit the limitations each time. It almost seems the leash gets shorter each time I try, like Fibro is getting angry at me for my persistence.
Should I appease the beast and stop trying? Nahhh.