The Table
This is where I put it out, serve it up, share it, taste it, and digest it all.
Come to my table and join me for a bit.
Thursday, May 2, 2019
Some of us are diagnosed (I have Hypermobility Type, formerly known as Type 3), but there are many others who are not yet diagnosed.
This genetic and incurable condition affects all systems of all tissues in the body, and thus the symptoms are varied and unpredictable. We have many sensitivities and our tissues are fragile and we don't heal well. Many commonly used anesthetics are less effective for some of us and ineffective for others.
Doctors are currently not well trained to recognize this connective tissue disorder (or others) so we rarely get proper care and treatment, and insurance can be even more ignorant with their policies. We have wrongly been told by ignorant doctors that testing shows nothing is wrong, simply because these doctors don't know how to test or what to look for.
Please realize that we don't have the luxury of forgetting about this condition because we typically suffer multiple symptoms at any given time. Understandably, we may be moody, frustrated, or depressed at any given time. We are trying to survive in this unfair world, basically taking care of ourselves and each other, since we frequently know more about EDS than many of our doctors. We read the studies, share experiences, and support each other as well as we can, just to make it on a daily basis.
We may look like healthy people on the outside, but our joints may easily subluxate or dislocate, causing painful injuries from the slightest movements, and sometimes from no movement at all. We get arthritis at an early age because of the additional wear and tear on our joints. We bruise easily and don't heal well. We suffer various digestive issues. We may have life-threatening allergic reactions due to mast cell instability. We have trouble regulating our blood pressure and body temperature and may feel faint or pass out from various triggers, and sometimes the triggers are unknown.
Please know that EDS is affecting me and quite possibly others you know and runs in families.
Please know that the stranger who is walking slowly ahead of you may be one of us, trying to get by without further injuring himself, even if he has no cane or brace. He is in pain. Do not hassle him if he has a handicap placard and is parked in a handicap spot. This disease is invisible.
Please know that when a coworker needs frequent time off it may be due to a flare up or injury that is causing myriad symptoms that prevent her from being able to live life for a while. Know that she is frequently unpaid for this time off after burning through all of her paid sick and vacation time. She is not enjoying these days off work; she is trying to let her body heal a bit until the pain levels are tolerable enough to work again. Know that she needs the income and insurance more than most, even though many of her specialists and treatments don't even accept insurance. She does not have a lot of options.
Know that when when a passenger next to you on the train or in an elevator is covering his face to protect himself from the fragrances in the air, it is because he is already dealing with plenty of symptoms, and that the fragrance causes instant migraine headaches, nausea, and lightheadedness and he needs to protect himself from these additional symptoms, especially if he is on his way to work and has to survive a full day, and is already at a stark disadvantage compared to many of his coworkers.
Please spread the word about this disease so doctors can catch up and be more helpful, or at least stop putting us in danger of further harm. You don't need to wear a zebra ribbon, but if you can share information and understanding with others, we can hope to get the medical attention and expertise we need to get by in this life.
For more information please visit The Ehlers-Danlos Society at https://www.ehlers-danlos.com/what-is-eds/ .
Sunday, March 31, 2019
My Bullet Journal Tracker for Mast Cell Treatments and Reaction Symptoms
Without further ado, below is my first month of tracked data, which was created after visiting my doctor on January 3rd of this year.
Basics:
Treatments:
Symptoms:
Advice:
I encourage everyone to take responsibility by observing symptoms in whatever format works best. Here are some final tips for learning more about how your body is behaving and what it needs.- Be consistent and track everything at least daily, to ensure a high level of accuracy. Reflecting back on your day just before heading to bed might be a good habit to try.
- Try one change in treatment or dosage at a time, and stick with it for at least a week, preferably two or three, to see if the change is effective for your needs.
- Feel free to also track triggers, side effects, moods, or any other relevant aspects of your health, if doing so will help you make informed decisions about your treatments.
- Look online to see what others might be doing to track their health details and share your great ideas with others as well. Get ideas from many sources and come up with something that works for you. The more knowledge and insight we can share with each other, I think the better our chances of getting these complex and mysterious conditions figured out and under control.
Sunday, October 7, 2018
New Look for "The Table" Blog
In case you're wondering why I chose the zebra pattern for the background, here is a clue from the Ehlers-Danlos Society.
Wednesday, September 19, 2018
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Saturday, August 25, 2018
I Finally Have Answers! If you Have Fibromyalgia and Are Hypermobile, Please Read!!
EDS also tends to bring Mast Cell Activation Syndrom (MCAS) and Postural Orthostatic Tachycardia Syndrome (POTS) along with it, which also seem to be what I have been experiencing, according to the specialists I have seen thus far. We are still working on confirming the MCAS, as it is tricky to test unless there is an actual reaction occurring at the time of testing. POTS seems likely per the EDS geneticist and the MCAS specialist, but I need to wait until January of 2019 to be seen by the EDS knowledgeable specialist who can test me officially for that. A tilt-table test is likely to happen then.
In addition, Osteoarthritis (OA) also tends to occur in EDS patients because of accelerated wear and tear on the joints. I have already been diagnosed with OA by my rheumatologist, after showing her my Heberden's Nodes which have formed on two of my fingers already.
After reading all about this connective tissue disorder and how it affects people who have them, I realized I have a lot on the very long checklists. So I sought out a local genetics doctor who is knowledgable and booked an appointment. EDS is not well understood by the medical community, as it is complex and there is no real treatment or known cure as of yet. That means there's really no money in it, so not many doctors invest the time and energy to learn much about it and treat EDS patients. (Sad, isn't it?) Despite these challenges, I had to know if this could be the cause of my health problems, so I could at least understand what is going on in my body and try to prevent further injuring it. I set out to find out who could rule out or diagnose this condition in me, locally. A local Facebook Group in my area was very helpful in finding resources near me.
In order to be properly diagnosed by an EDS knowledgeable genetics doctor, one must:
- Discuss family health history,
- Have this doctor examine you for certain physical traits and characteristic reactions,
- Perform a certain set of specific physical tests in front of the doctor, so he can assess the Beighton Score for hypermobility, and finally,
- It may also be recommended to have genetic testing done to rule out or identify certain types of EDS.
Once the several months of waiting for my appointment passed, I finally went to see a local EDS knowledgable genetics doctor and did all of the above. Everything points to EDS, and the Beighton Score, along with the genetic testing, pointed specifically toward the Hypermobility Type of EDS. Thankfully, this is not one of the more severe and life-threatening types, but it can still be debilitating. Unfortunately, debilitating is where I seem to be headed now. I'm not sure if it's just my age or what I've been going through, but something has caused my body to take things to the next level of awful this past year or so.
Recently, I've been rolling my ankle just walking on flat sidewalk (couple times!), I've had painful shoulder tendinitis that required over weeks of physical therapy to strengthen, I have been having new problems in my hip that make bearing weight excruciating after a period of sitting, and my knees, which have always had a tendency to buckle painfully, are acting up more these days.
I've also been reacting with flushing for no apparent reason and developed new sensitivities to Hydrocodone and Xylitol, in addition to the new food allergy to apples that I've developed in recent years, and the new lip balm reactions I have had as well.
Now that I know what's going on, I needed to understand it. I have recently been having an awful flare up that's been affecting my neck and shoulder, back, and knees for the past week plus now. It's been a pretty high level of pain much of the time, and is apparently not being well managed by the Cyclobenzaprine and Low Dose Naltrexone (LDN), which has been helpful in lowering my "new normal" pain levels and giving me more good days between flare ups. These flare ups, however, are terrible lately. I have been laid up for several days, including last Saturday, just trying to rest up and heat the affected area. All it takes is a few days of level 8 pain to make you wonder how you can go on. I have had to keep talking myself down to get through it.
In my current, painful state, I did some quick research on my newest, and most important diagnosis. I found this page, EDS-H & JHS: Understanding Ehlers-Danlos Syndrome Hypermobility-Type and Joint Hypermobility Syndrome to be very informative and an excellent resource for understanding how all the little diagnoses I have collected throughout my life are all tied to the connective tissue disorder, Ehlers-Danlos.
I'll try to sum up what I know now, but if you or your child or children are hypermobile, you may want to read the above web page as well to see if you relate to other details.
Okay, here goes...
Collagen is the connective tissue "glue" that holds our bodies together. When this connective tissue is defective and weak, as it is for EDS patients like me, joints can overextend (hypermobility) and less unstable than normal people's joints. When joints hyperextend, dislocations and subluxations (not quite full dislocations) can occur. When joints sublux or dislocate, the surrounding, and already weak tissues (muscle, tendons, muscle fascia, etc.), become overstretched, and can tear and stiffen as they attempt to repair the damage. All of this spells pain, in many ways, at the very least, plus various other problems in the body. For this reason, EDS patients need to protect their loose joints with various braces and limited activities. This explains my several ankle rolls and foot tendonitis, shoulder tendonitis, and carpal tunnel pains. It also explains how that car accident in 2006 triggered a world of hurt in me that never got better, but rather snowballed to where I am now.
When movements and activities lead to these painful and destructive episodes, those movements and activities tend to be avoided - have never been athletic - leading to weakened (doughy) muscles. Weak muscles can further destabilize joints, continuing in a vicious circle of pain and destruction. This explains my chronic pain and flare ups.
Weak connective tissue manifests many ways, such as Fibromyalgia, a syndrome that describes chronic pain, fatigue, sleep disorder, Irritable Bowel Syndrome (IBS), Migraines, Temporomandibular Joint Disorder (TMJD), allergies and various sensitivities, and lots of other odd little things that make my life extra challenging.
EDS is associated with 2 other conditions that are frequently comorbid: Mast Cell Activation Syndrom (MCAS) and Postural Orthostatic Tachycardia Syndrome (POTS).
Mast Cell Activation Syndrome (MCAS), has to do with histamine and allergies and sensitivities. Basically, any kind of physical reaction that can occur as a result of any kind trigger is fair game. For me, this explains my hay fever and allergies to tree pollen, weed pollen, grass pollen, dust, dust mites, feathers, animal danders, mold, fragrances, newspapers, apples, lip balms, nickel, scratches, pressure, Hydrocodone, sudden temperature changes, and who knows what else. My reactions include rhinitis (sniffling, sneezing, and nasal congestion), asthma (cat dander, mold, dust mites, fragrances), digestive cramping and dumping (apples, hydrocodone, and unidentified triggers), hives (Dermatographia from scratches, Delayed Pressure Urticaria from pressure), dermatitis (lip balms and nickel), and flushing red and burning skin (sudden temperature changes and unidentified triggers). A lot of "masties" may suffer anaphylaxis when exposed to some of their triggers. I have had a few episodes myself in the doctors office after a slightly too high incremental increase in my desensitization injections, and have had to do the Epi-pen and inhaler thing. It was quite a production!
The other comorbid condition is Postural Orthostatic Tachycardia Syndrome (POTS), a type of Dysautonomia, which has to do with blood pressure changes, heart rate changes, heart arrhythmias, and fainting or near fainting, that is triggered by one's change in posture. This is due to blood pooling at lower areas of the body rather than circulating more reliably throughout the body. It goes back to weak connective tissue causing weak blood vessels and heart tissue, which, in turn, results in poor circulation of blood in the body and brain. This explains my momentary blindness and dizziness when getting up quickly, my unexplained heart rhythm (tachycardia) episodes - the first one triggered by my bending down to pick something up at age 17 lasted hours and I had to go to ER - and an apparent heart rate change when I squat for a couple minutes then stand up straight, as a specialist tested. I also get migraines, which are caused by a decrease in pressure in blood vessels, which makes sense here.
Some types of EDS affect internal organs and can lead to weakened arteries and digestive tract organs, which can rupture. Vascular type is particularly dangerous, but there are 13 types of EDS and several of them carry serious health risks. Hypermobility type is what I have been diagnosed with, though many of the 13 types also present with hypermobile joints. Genetic testing helps rule out or diagnose the types which have identified genes. EDS is inherited and it is usually the same type that runs in families.
The gene for Hypermobility Type has not yet been identified, so testing is done to rule out the other types, which is how I was diagnosed, along with family history and a clinical Beighton Score test for hypermobility.
This turned out to be way longer than I expected it to be, but I hope it helps someone make sense of their symptoms or lead to a correct diagnosis and proper care. Please feel free to share with others. EDS is not as rare as it seems. Doctors and patients need to know more about it so people can get the care they need and patients can arm themselves with knowledge against unnecessary injury and pain.
If you or your kids are hypermobile, please learn more about EDS and pay attention to these seemingly unrelated conditions and symptoms. There is a tie in!
When symptoms don't seem to connect, think connective tissue!
Tuesday, July 12, 2016
Ĉu Vi Parolas Esperanton?
The story of why DuoLingo offers a multitude of language lessons for free is very interesting, and is explained in this fascinating TED talk about captchas. Regardless of the goal of the overall project, millions of people are learning languages for free and they get to keep that knowledge forever and do with it what they please. Don and I are two of those people and we have decided to learn Esperanto.
Esperanto is a constructed language, created by a Polish Jew named L.L. Zamenhof. His vision was to create an easy to learn language that could unite the world by serving as the ultimate international language of the world. Until now, only a relatively few people had access to learning anything about this language, much less even heard of it. It's fun to learn and the community is very friendly as well.
We are now nearing the completion of the DuoLingo "tree" of lessons and can have beginner conversations using the language. We practice a little every day online and with each other and it's going very well.
In my enthusiasm for my new culture, I've created a few Zazzle product designs to help celebrate Esperanto and offer a unique way to discover other Esperantists or start conversations and gain interest in this great language, which is growing in popularity by the day. Please take a look and feel free to share and buy my designs so I can make a few pennies here and there. I hope to create more designs in the future.
Take a look at the DuoLingo site and sign up to learn Esperanto or any other language. There are many, many options available, and developers are working on more options all the time, so keep checking back if the one you want isn't available just yet.
Äœis la revido, amikoj!
Tuesday, December 15, 2015
Abandoned Fibro Blogs
I just unsubscribed from over a dozen blogs written by fibromyalgia sufferers about their lives with fibromyalgia. All of them have not published a post in over a thousand days. Nothing. Where did they all go?
Several years back, around the time of the great Facebook revolution, I did a brief stint on Twitter. While there, I found a group of fellow fibromites and some of them had blogs. We subscribed to each other's blogs and created our own, (myself included,) exchanging stories and insights about our many challenges. We wrote frequently back then, as there was a lot we had to say.
Maybe it's all been said now. I feel like I'm caught up on all the nuances of this fibro life, yet I still look for news and different perspectives here and there. Once in a great while, I share my own.
This has become clear recently while reviewing my Facebook Memories from years past. I used to post about my pains and health challenges, and sometimes my health victories. Now, I feel I don't want to bore or annoy my Facebook friends with the tedium of my particular collection of health problems. They may not understand what it's like to live like this, but maybe they don't need to.
I have learned that most everyone has their own set of problems. Would I want to read about them all? Wouldn't I start to see certain people as their most frequent complaints? This is not how I want people to see me. I am a person with interests and convictions. I look for opportunities to be more interesting. I am trying to live life.
Hopefully the lost fibro bloggers are all out living their lives and trying not to wallow in their pain. Although I know blogging is a good outlet for dealing with the struggles of living with an invisible illness, I know it can have the unfortunate consequence of limiting one's ability to move beyond that focus.
Today, my advice is to try to forget the bad and focus on the good, the positive. What can you do? What can you enjoy. Be a whole person.
Wednesday, October 21, 2015
A Long, Long Year, and a Poem
However, as he nears his reconnection surgery date, we have been trying to get his weight and strength back up, and one of the things we have been doing is walking every day. Those walks inspired this poem. I hope you enjoy it.
The Same Old Path by Benia Zouras
Friday, October 2, 2015
Monarch Butterflies and a Bunny
The winds of Autumn are blowing hard outside now, but at least this video captures some relaxing quiet time. Enjoy.
Wednesday, February 11, 2015
Another Diagnosis
I saw my rheumatologist today. She confirmed that my finger bump is very likely the beginning of arthritis, and, unfortunately, there is no treatment to prevent or slow down the development.
I also went to visit my parents after the appointment, since they live near my doctor's office. My dad has arthritis, further supporting the likelihood that I will suffer the same fate. I looked at his hands. His finger joints have prominent double bumps on them, and he has trouble bending them. It's at least a slow condition to develop.
I am hoping that if I continue to use and exercise my index finger - instead of adapting by using other fingers - that I can retain joint flexibility longer and maybe prevent the bony growth from obstructing mobility a bit longer. This is all speculation on my part. The doctor talked about a topical treatment to reduce inflammation. I still have plenty of Zostrix with capsaicin that I can use if it gets "angry".
I completely forgot to mention the eye twitch (Myokymia) today, but it's almost becoming a normal part of life now, it's been so many months now.
I am also going to try to wean off the one prescription medication that I take for FMS/CMP: Cyclobenzaprine. She suggested halving the dose for a few months and watching out for worsening pain or sleep, then halving again and watching out again, before finally stopping it. I'm going to see if I can do it, since the dry eyes and dry mouth are starting to really bug me lately, and it may also be aggravating my atrial tachycardia (heart palpitations). I notice the episodes tend to occur right when I wake up.
I'm proud to report that my doctor said she wishes all of her patients were like me. I'm glad I'm managing this all somehow.
Saturday, December 27, 2014
New Bump on Knuckle + Eye Twitching (Myokymia)
Yesterday, I looked at my hands and I noticed there is now an ugly, prominent bump on the one knuckle. See it (circled)? What the heck is this?
New bump on my top knuckle, right index finger |
I also took a photo of each hand, for comparison. None of my other knuckles have this bump or pain or clicking.
How do you like my snowy, glittery manicure? :)
When I first went to see my current rheumatologist a couple years ago, she had me get x-rays of my hands and feet, as a baseline to rule out other conditions and prescribe appropriate treatment. That's also when my possible Kohler's Disease was discovered, though nothing was ever determined about why it occurred or if it signifies anything. I do remember mentioning the new clicking and pain to her a few appointments ago, but I don't recall any conclusions about it. With the new bump now, there may be more of a clue about something.
I'm concerned about arthritis, especially since I know my dad is having problems with his hands due to arthritis, and I noticed that a lot of my fibro friends also have comorbid arthritic conditions.
Anyway, I will see my rheumatologist soon, and will be sure to bring this up with her again to see what she recommends. I'm really hoping I can treat it without adding any new medications to my current list of meds. Side effects are no fun, especially when I've already got plenty of weird symptoms.
Speaking of side effects, I have been having more eye twitching in my left eye (Myokymia). I'd forgotten I had an episode like this back when I blogged about the x-ray results. This time, though, my lower lid toward the inner corner of my left eye is the part that keeps twitching. It's been over a month now, for this bout. I thought they finally ended a few days ago, but they are creeping back into my daily life again today, even as I type now.
When they started, the twitches would occur several times a minute, which, let me tell you, is pretty distracting. After about a couple weeks, the twitches slowed down to several times a day, and after a month, I thought they ended. Now they are starting back up again. Not sure if this is a side effect of anything, but I will also mention this to my doctor, in case she recognizes anything about it.
Wednesday, July 2, 2014
Rest in Peace, Bunny
Today, Bunny, my rice sock, was scorched in a senseless act by the rogue microwave at work today. I still needed her warmth, but the smell of burnt popcorn quickly permeated my department, with disgusted co-workers bluntly shunning us. They don't understand what she means to me. I took my poor Bunny home with me.
The heating pad at home took over for a while, but Bunny will be missed. She has warmed my spasming muscles on many occasions, allowing this chronic pain sufferer to bravely press on and continue to "make the bacon" despite the stabbing pain. Time and time again, she has been there for me when others didn't have a clue I was overwhelmed and in a world of hurt. She gave me courage, hope, and most of all, gentle and encouraging warmth.
Rest in peace, my dear Bunny. I will always remember you and how you came through for me in countless times of need.
Wednesday, April 16, 2014
Trigger Points Gone Berserk
Tuesday, March 18, 2014
Painful Foot Update: Peroneal Tendonitis
I had my foot x-rayed to rule out any bone or other problems - all clear there. With my past history of having this same problem a few months back, and since it went away with just some icing and rest, he says we can assume this is peroneal tendonitis. If it gets better in a few days with the ice, Aleve, rest, etc. that would support the diagnosis. However, if it gets worse or does not subside, we can do more detailed testing like MRI to see if anything has torn.
An ankle brace was recommended to help support the foot and reduce further inflammation while walking around, so I went and got one after my appointment.
I was also told my arches were slightly flat, and that my foot posture turning downward on the inner sides of my feet was possibly contributing to my tendonitis. The doctor recommended getting some good shoe inserts with sturdy arch support. So I got a pair of these as well. Since I had some cheap inserts in my boots already, he looked at them and added some felt to the bottom of the arch area, to beef up the support a bit. I thought that was nice.
I also got a great printout of strengthening exercises to do to help prevent further injury to my feet, and have been giving those a try each day. I'm backing off the daily stairs climbing at work until I feel better, and the yoga and other activities are mostly on hiatus, too, to I can rest the bad foot. I did do some yoga poses today, though. I just made sure I didn't use my feet for support and took extra care to look for any signs of pain in that bad ankle.
So, here I am, several days later with my foot feeling a lot better, but not quite back to normal yet. I am still wearing the ankle brace but I have put the cane away and have just been stepping slowly and carefully at work and at home.
I'm a bit cranky otherwise, though, because other symptoms have been acting up. I fear that the Aleve I was told to take (always with meals, mind you) for the inflammation was irritating my stomach, so I stopped taking it. I had some gastritis a while back and don't know if that is still with me, or if it's just more IBS or something else. I have been dealing with some sharp, stabbing pains in my ribs and back the past couple of days, and my eyes feel like I've been awake too long, though I did manage to sleep. Then yesterday, out of nowhere, tinnitus in my left ear just started raging with this loud, muffling ringing for hours. On top of all of these symptoms, like the cherry on top, is all the mental garbage that tags along: my difficulty with focus and memory, plus the stress of dealing with all this crap while trying to live and manage and keep my job. I declare a flare. And I am just trying to remember that there is hope at the other end of this particular nightmare. I just don't know when exactly that will be.
Thursday, March 13, 2014
Painful Foot and Burning Hands
As much as I hate using the cane that I keep in my car, (and getting the old "what happened?" or the exaggerated sad and concerned face from well-meaning coworkers,) I broke down and started using it a couple days ago. I took about 6 steps away from my car in the parking lot at work last Tuesday when I realized I should be using that cane. Stubborn me, though, I didn't turn back to get it. I soldiered on through the morning and grabbed it at lunchtime.
Tomorrow morning, I will see a podiatrist to see what the problem is. I'm hoping to at least find out what I might have done to aggravate this condition, so I can at least stop doing that. Thus far, I have noticed that the pain subsides with rest, and gets worse with stairs, (both up and down,) or walking for more than about a minute. Today I noticed further that it's when I place the heel down that is painful, and I've caught myself kind of toe-stepping slowly on my right foot, and relying on the cane for support.
The cane also slows me down so I can step more carefully. It also helps tell others that I won't be able to scurry up to catch that opened door, or run across a walk before that car comes. The cane is growing on me, but I still hate having one hand occupied while I'm moving. It's also a bit of a bother in the bathroom. I have a new appreciation for anyone who needs to use walking aids full time.
Anyway, I hope to know more about this foot tomorrow.
On a side note, I've been noticing an odd new symptom has popped up in the past few weeks. Every now and then, my hands turn really red and hot and start burning painfully. The burning makes me look at them. It looks ridiculous. One time, just my thumbs and index fingers were red-hot, but the pinkies were cold. My husband was around so I showed him. It is bizarre. I also notice coldness in my toes, inside my shoes/slippers when my fingers and hands get cool.
I'm one of those people who is usually cold, especially my hands and feet and especially around bedtime. I get those "icicle feet". Luckly, Don is usually too warm so he lets me warm up my tootsies on his warm feet and we find some kind of equilibrium. As a child, I remember getting hands so cold I had to stop practicing piano. My mom knows. She would always say "cold hands, warm heart" to make me feel better.
My first thought about the temperature weirdness is Raynaud's, which is common among fibromites. Cold really does hurt my hands. For example, peeling a cold cucumber requires breaks where I put down the cold cucumber and blow on my hands to warm them up again. Again, ridiculous. When I come in from a walk in cold weather, my thighs are numb and as I begin to warm back up inside, they twitch all over. Does this happen to you? The thing is, I've never recalled any real white or blue discoloration of my fingers, as with the classic Raynaud's. I know it's not the same for every patient, but I just notice that. I just get the red, hot hands. I don't know if my feet get that way, though, other than when the pressure hives are raging on the bottoms of my feet.
Today I came across a rare condition with the burning red extremities. I hate to speculate, but I cannot help but wonder about it. It's called Erythromlalgia and here is the page with the interesting photos: http://www.erythromelalgia.org/WhatisEM.aspx
I will definitely need to note these new symptoms for my next rheumatologist appointment. I just saw her last month, but if things get ridiculous, I may try to see her sooner than my next appointment in August.
Do you know anything about this? Got any tips or links that might help me?
Thursday, March 6, 2014
Snowy Weather
I'm having a variety of symptom flare ups despite my cozy fleece leggings (I got several from Walgreens for five bucks each - so worth it!) and my husband forbidding me from shoveling the snow. Muscle spasms have been frequent. IBS was raging fiercely for a couple weeks but has finally subsided (thank goodness). And the odd foot problem I had last Fall is back today. Somehow, it snuck back while I was lying in bed or sitting down today. I just don't see how I could have triggered if I wasn't doing anything. I never managed to see a doctor about this last time, so I might be doing that if this becomes a daily pain again.
Saturday, January 18, 2014
Reflections on the Table
It's incredibly frustrating to keep trying to be healthy and productive while the Chronic Myofascial Pain and Fibromyalgia keep conspiring to knock me down and punish me for it. Like many other fibromites, I feel the better days that come along between flare ups can be both a blessing and a curse. The blessing is feeling less pain and feeling less miserable, but the curse is that we all seem to do too much on these good days, because it's our best chance at getting things done. Then we crash hard because we overdid it. But, I need to remember that I will have better days and I will have worse days, and it may not make any sense when they occur. I do what I can to help minimize the worse days and plan for special occasions, but fibro doesn't care. I am still learning to accept that.
Moving on...
Saturday, December 14, 2013
Stuck Between Worlds
Saturday, November 23, 2013
Tell the FDA What You Need
After I commented I was contacted by the editor, Pat Anson, via email, asking me for more detail on my experience with Cyclobenzaprine, for another, related story. That article was just published yesterday: http://americannewsreport.com/nationalpainreport/fibromyalgia-patients-take-drug-label-help-sleep-8822476.html
Thursday, November 21, 2013
Just What Any of Us Needs: A New Symptom
Tuesday, November 12, 2013
When Temps Drop, My Pain Rises
For the longest time, I noticed that I had a problem regulating my temperatures. As a child, I would frequently have to stop practicing piano because my fingers just got too painfully cold to continue. When home computers came around, I noticed a similar issue with my mousing hand. My mom used to tell me "cold hands, warm heart" whenever she found my hands so cold for no good reason.
These days, I notice I can't seem to escape cold temperatures, even in the summer. There's always plenty of folks turning the A/C down because they are sweating in the office or wherever I seem to go - even at home. I frequently bring an extra sweater or layer of clothing if I am going anywhere there is bound to be air conditioning. Just this last summer, I remember having to have a building worker close the damper that was blowing cool air directly onto my hands at work - twice. Most people didn't know what I was bitching about, because they prefer cooler temperatures. For me, I had to fight to keep my hands warm while still getting my work done. The stiffness would sneak up on me while concentrating on my job, and then the distracting pain would trigger a host of other unpleasant symptoms. I seriously don't know how I'm able to keep a job with what I brave every day.
I don't think anyone can truly grasp just how difficult my personal challenges are. I keep doing my best and I don't know how to feel about this, but people forget I have any kind of illness at all. You'd think everyone would be able to understand at least pain. Everyone has had pain of some kind at one time or another. Some of my coworkers have painful conditions, too. Yet they ask me to do things I can't do without making difficult decisions between my own health and my source of income. Time and time again, I choose income over my health and deal with the consequences later. I suppose this is part of my problem. But, anyway, I have digressed.
As I write to you, I'm noticing how very cold my feet are. It's not unusual for them to be cold. If they are ever warm by bedtime, my husband jokingly asks me what I did with the real Benia. Thankfully, he welcomes my icy feet and shares his heat with me, but I still can't seem to escape the pain. Last night, long after the time I should have been asleep, I was just feeling this chill crawling over my skin. Just over and over, these washes of shivering cold just kept me far from comfortable, and unable to rest. I was balled up under 3 layers of bedding that seemed like flimsy doily as far as I'm concerned. I would love to add 2 more thick quilts on top of me for bed. I shivered and shivered last night, getting little sleep and dealing with new, stabbing pains in my back and head. Eventually, I got up and braved the short walk to take some pain medication. By morning, I was in no shape to get up and go to work.
I am about to take a warm shower to try and warm up for a bit, and I will use my heating pad to help keep me warm afterwards. In the meantime, I want to share this short article that talks about why cold can be so painful. It also lists several great tips for keeping warm. I do some, but I will be trying others as well. It's going to be a long winter for me. Stay warm!
Tuesday, November 5, 2013
Top Fibro-Flare Triggers
Sunday, October 20, 2013
Changes for Better Sleep with Fibromyalgia
Several things have changed for me, including the meds I take, as well as several of my habits and personal goals. I try to notice correlations between how I feel and what I do or what is happening when I have questions about new or persistent symptoms that pop-up.
Journaling
I can't say enough about journaling, blogging, or at least keeping track of things quickly in a calendar or other logging medium. When you wonder how long a symptom has been around, check your entries and eliminate the need for guessing. If you wonder if the weather is behind an infrequent symptom, check your entries for clues. When it's time to visit the doctor, prepare with bullet points and questions after reviewing your entries since the last visit. Write stuff down, even if you don't think it's relevant. Sometimes that added detail can be important later on.
Medications & Supplements
Caffeine
Food
I also started mixing up smoothies with fresh and frozen fruits and vegetables after I saw a Vitamix demonstration at that Whole Foods one day. I tasted a green smoothie that was made before my eyes with nothing more than a huge wad of spinach, banana, and some pineapple chunks (and water). It was like green candy! I was inspired and started pricing the fancy blenders that night. Yikes, they are expensive! Then I realized my blender at home (Waring Pro) has plenty of horsepower in the motor to blend up smoothies at home at no additional cost!
I made a pretty easy resolution this year to make sure I exercise at least a little bit every few days. I have been doing yoga classes weekly, but when those went away, I took what I learned from class and did my own custom routines at home. Yoga is one of several activities I do for exercise. Others including walking, getting on the elliptical machine, stair-climbing, and various gentle stretches and exercises for my hips and back - areas I need to keep strong and stretched to keep some of my troublesome symptoms down. The idea is to keep moving to try to prevent those awful muscle spasms, keep my blood circulating, and of course, to keep my weight healthy. I noticed that keeping track of my activities helps motivate me to do more. I provide a link to my activities in this exercise focused post.
Sleeping Positions
Everyone is different, of course, and there may be things I didn't remember to list or didn't realize make a difference with sleep. If you have other tips for better sleep for fibromites, please feel free to comment. Sweet dreams.
Saturday, October 5, 2013
Peroneal Tendonitis in Right Foot
Tuesday, September 17, 2013
Stairs
That bugged me a little. I started doing the 4 flights of stairs last February, when I was awarded a garage parking space that was near the stairwell for a full month. I figured I'd make up the walk from the parking lot by going up some steps, even though I could only do about half the way up to my floor before my legs seized up. It was a great habit that stuck with me even after my month of privileged parking was up. It became stranger for me to NOT take the stairs than to just take them. I have also read that it takes about a month to develop or quit a habit, so that makes sense that the habit stuck. But I'd become frustrated in my limitations and not being able to progress as I expected to, over time. Here it is, 7 months later, and I was still only going up 4 flights at a time.
Well, today, when lunchtime came, I took the stairs up to get back to work and just decided I would have to finally try to do 5 flights today. I went slowly and took a break at 3 flights, then at 4. Then I continued, finally, to the 5th. Yay! Then I took a break and just kept going. Why not? I rested a few seconds at each floor and kept going up until I made it to my floor on the 8th floor, which totals 9 flights (from the garage level). I did it! I am stronger than I gave myself credit! Whoohoo!!!
That's all for now. I'm doing things and watching how I'm able to handle things, pushing myself and taking breaks. I was totally prepared to be wiped out after doing 5 flights today, and I was not too bad after 9. I guess tomorrow might feel differently, but for now, I'm good with just enjoying the super feat I've accomplished.
I will definitely have to keep trying to do that 9 more regularly, starting tomorrow.