I've been noticing some icky trends in myself lately. I've been picking at my fingers like mad, lately. I am trying to quit, but I'm worse than ever these days! I am hoping that announcing this the public will help me to quit this terrible habit. I also just found a website that addresses this problem.
I've also been having cravings and overeating, or at least I think I am - so then I try to balance things out by skipping meals if I can stand it (not very often). I've got this insane addiction to natural peanut butter that has had me reaching for the jar every morning after breakfast. (Luckily, we ran out!) A few days ago, I grabbed a bag of chips and really had at it. I was not hungry, but I craved the salt and was unstoppable!
My fibrofog has been worse than usual this week. I noticed more than a few times when I had to eat crow for bonehead oversights at work and have had a particularly difficult time staying focused on the more involved discussions. Working in IT, there are plenty of abstract ideas that require careful following along in order to be of any use to the project. Too often I have found myself just "la la la"-ing through the hard parts, only to have to ask for concepts to be reviewed. I don't feel too badly, though, because my asking for "a clean run-through" of a concept helps the other participants to understand the plan and their roles. I just wish I didn't HAVE to ask because I missed something important.
As you may have guessed by now, I've also been yearning for some down time. I have been stressed at work and wish I had more sick/vacation time (I'm all out for the year). I feel like a day at home, alone, being quiet and still, would be helpful in recalibrating my system. I already have plans for tomorrow, but I am hoping maybe this Sunday I can finally relax at home a bit and find a couple more spoons.
I don't like the feeling of not being in control of what I'm doing. I think general stress is pulling me in too many directions at once. Does this happen to you, fellow fibromites? Can I blame Fibromyalgia or my drugs, or is this just some ugly side of myself that I have to admit to? How do you get through these episodes?
I will not give up fighting these unhealthy habits, but I do seem to be weak lately.
Sounds like stress to me. I found myself stuck in those cravings when I am in high stress mode. I am one for peanut butter and chocolate. I just found a banana chocolate bread recipe I twittered. I fight my hardest to stay away from cravings. Harder now with my knee blown and not able to move much. Fruit and popcorn are what I eat to try to fix my cravings. Very hard though. lol.
ReplyDeleteI try to hamper my cravings by eating healthy small minuet portions through the day. Skipping meals just adds more stress.
Try to dedicate more time to relaxing and down time. You will feel so much better. ((hugs))
I definitely feel like I need to be able to rewind conversations a lot more lately than ever before. Wish I could TIVO meetings! I try to write things down more than ever, give myself trigger notes to help me remember. Still trying to figure out the best way to organize myself so I can remember things better.
ReplyDeleteAs for cravings... I always go from salty to sweet. It's always chocolate or chips. Pretty problematic considering both are really bad for fibro. Really bad considering I have NO will power.
These days I'm doing okay on the cravings since I don't have much of an appetite. Which for me sucks, because I love food!
Anyway... we'll get through all this together!
hugs!!
Thank you, ladies. It's good to know I'm not alone. Thanks much for your hugs and your support. Every bit helps!
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