I have a friend who is very ill with several, chronic, lifelong conditions. Her name is Dee, but she goes by "Line" on Facebook. She has Fibromyalgia, Crohn's, Arthritis, and lives with pain of many kinds on a daily basis. She has had to get her colon removed since I've known her, and with the infection and problems that occurred during all that, she has really been through hell. When I am in pain of any kind, I think of her as inspiration to go on. Her family has been dealing with their own health problems as well.
On top of all of these health problems, she's losing her teeth and cannot afford to get them fixed. Her insurance plan covers very little of the huge expense of the cost to fix her mouth so she can eat solid food again.
I can personally vouch for her. She is a very kind and beautiful person, and she absolutely hates to ask for help. Nobody likes to ask, but she is always giving of whatever she can to support others emotionally and has not asked for anything until now.
This is her last chance to fix her teeth so she can at least eat and get some nutrition into her body. If you have any way to contribute, even a small amount, please know that it is for a very good cause and will be used to restore her mouth to be able to eat solid food. It's a long way to the goal, but any small bit helps.
Also, please share this link freely as you can, to help spread the word.
http://www.gofundme.com/theinvisibleamongus
Thank you!
Friday, March 22, 2013
Sunday, March 3, 2013
FMS and the Mirena IUD
WARNING: This post is about birth control. There is a lot of detail here that you may or may not be interested in reading. I wanted to post the details of my experience, in case they help other women out there who are also interested in the Mirena IUD, especially those with fibromyalgia. No companies sponsor my posts or pay me for anything I say, so you can trust my opinions to be true and objective. I know some bloggers earn a living from their ads and sponsors, which is fine, but I do not. I kinda hate that, so I only link to or endorse whatever I like and trust to be good. You're welcome.
When my blood pressure was not dropping to normal after many months off of Savella, my gynecologist ordered me off Seasonique because the estrogen in it could be contributing to the high blood pressure. So, I quit taking last October and thought about alternative birth control methods. At the doctor's suggestion, I did some research and eventually decided to go with the Mirena IUD. It contains hormones, but not estrogen. I found out my insurance plan covered the cost, save for a $25 co-pay, which is lots less expensive than the pills which are not covered at all under my insurance plan, for some reason.
There are few key things to know about Mirena, if you are interested.
It seemed that many women loved it and some even had a second one inserted after 5 years on the first one. But others hated it because they got a lot of side effects, like weight gain, mood disorders, etc. They were very, very angry and wanted nobody else to experience what they had. Although, while reading some of the detailed negative posts, I suspected at least some of the unlucky women had other issues that may have contributed to their symptoms or perhaps they should have mentioned to their doctors before deciding to go on Mirena. (Think about it. If a mom of 2 young kids is getting Mirena because she is terribly afraid of getting pregnant again, and she's mentioning her husband being unhelpful in her rant, she's stressed already, with or without Mirena.) I think they had untreated or undiagnosed conditions that did not manifest until they went on Mirena, because many of them did not seem to have been on any hormonal treatment before Mirena.
I liked the benefits and low cost of Mirena, but knew that there was a possibility that I might have some horrific side effects myself, since I seem to be sensitive to many medications, and because I have this damned Fibromyalgia. However, since I'd been on one hormonal birth control treatment or another for at least 10 years now, I was willing to find out, rather than wonder about it for the rest of my life. If it doesn't work out, I could always have it removed and switch to a non-estrogen pill or other method.
So, my first challenge was to wait for a period. As I mentioned, I have not been off birth control pills for a very long time, but I do remember not having regular ones. They tended to be occur at anywhere from 5 to 7 to even 9 weeks between periods, and they were always kind of miserable, which is why reducing and predicting them with Seasonique worked so well for me all these years. So, in October, after the initial period that came with stopping Seasonique, I switched to the estrogen-free Jolivette "mini-pill", not realizing until a month later, that there were no "dummy" pills for the period in these packs. They are meant to be taken continuously with periods that may or may not happen, and if they do, with no real predictability. For me, nothing happened. (Doctor, why didn't you mention this when you prescribed it?)
By Thanksgiving, I had already decided on and ordered Mirena and it was shipped to my doctor's office, waiting for my period to arrive so I could schedule the insertion. I realized after no period came that I would be waiting a long time if I stayed on Jolivette, so I quit that and switched to condoms. It was a little inconvenient but I wanted to get going on the Mirena project already.
So then it was nothing all month until late evening on Christmas Eve, the floodgates opened and the period was on. However, timing was absolutely terrible for getting Mirena. The next day was a holiday, and the rest of the week, I had travel plans. I had to wait another month or so for the next opportunity. Everything I'd read was about getting the thing inserted during the period, especially for someone like me with no babies or anything dilating my cervix. So, I waited.
You know how a watched pot never boils? When you actually wait for your period, it's an agonizingly long wait. All of January came and went without much more than a spot or two. On February 5th, I had a bit more spotting than usual and called the doctor's office, indicating that I'm not sure what's going on, or if this is it or not, but wanted to make an appointment while something was happening. Luckily, a mere few minutes after making a Thursday appointment for Mirena insertion, the floodgates opened again and confirmed the period had arrived.
The nurse told me it would be a quick, 10-minute procedure to get the IUD installed, and that I'd be fine to go to work afterwards. Nothing to it. Easy-peazy. I scheduled a half-day with the morning off work. I remember being told to take a pain medication (I took Aleve) before the appointment. Then she mentioned it would be done by a different doctor from the one I see. I figured my doctor wasn't available, so, no big deal. I was all set for Thursday morning and excited to finally have this ordeal taken care of and behind me. I was eager to find out if this solution would work for me.
When my appointment finally arrived, I met the new doctor (new to me), he assured me that he'd been installing IUDs for 30 years now, and that he would take good care of me. He was friendly and courteous, and the nurse was also very nice and helpful. I still missed my own doctor (because she knows me and I know her), but I figured this should not be too big a deal. Maybe she's not so experienced with these things. I'm probably better off, I reasoned.
So, the doctor explained all the details, showed me the product, and we got started. He warned me when things would feel uncomfortable or crampy, just like my regular doctor. He said he had to first measure the uterus, which would feel crampy, then the insertion was to feel crampy again. Then a snip of the strings and I'd be all done. It sounded a lot like the yearly check-ups with my regular gynecologist. I was not at all ready for the level of pain that I experienced.
The crampy feeling from this was a thousand times more intense than I'm used to feeling during yearly exams. Why did nobody online warn me of this terribly painful experience? Maybe it wasn't this bad for most people? Maybe I didn't read all the right posts. I do have Fibromyalgia, which can amplify even non-painful pressure as awful pains.
I was embarrassed to be unable to prevent my yelling "ow" during the procedure. I noticed also that my face felt really hot all of a sudden. Then I felt weird and a wave of cold sweat came on. I described it to my doctor, in case he needed to know. He knew what it was and didn't seem too surprised, but he and the nurse both seemed concerned, despite my joking a bit to let them know that I'm not a big baby. I knew there'd be discomfort, and I assumed it was just a temporary problem that I'd get over, which helped me keep my spirits up. They gave me some juice to sip to feel a little better and were very nice to me.
The doctor felt bad about the pain and apologized for making me hurt. I knew he didn't mean to. He explained that I had a vasovagal response, which "some women" get during this kind of procedure. I had never heard of this term before, but they explained and it seemed reasonable. I'd look it up once I was out of there, I decided. The nurse and the doctor were both very repeatedly clear about letting me know that I could lie there as long as I needed to before getting dressed, since the room would not be needed for many hours. I asked the nurse why everyone was so concerned about me and asked if they thought I would faint or something. She said yes. I was also very pale, apparently, so I guess all the blood wanted to leave my head, which could lead to a fainting spell. I told her I'd never fainted, so maybe that helped me this time.
I sipped on my juice and tried to relax for a bit, alone in the room, but I didn't feel comfortable lying on the table half-naked for so long. So I slowly got up and got dressed, but felt very crampy, so I still needed to sit for a while. Then I was in a hurry to leave because I suddenly felt the need to use the bathroom, so I checked out and spent some time in the rest room. I was supposed to get to work for the afternoon, but as I slowly made my way to my car, I realized it wasn't worth it to work in this much distracting pain. I headed home instead and notified my boss that I couldn't come in after all. I did not want to move at all for the rest of the day and the next. (I had to call in sick again the next day, Friday.) I parked on the couch with a heating pad on my belly, just enduring the constant cramping and trying to think about the future, when the pain would be gone. By Saturday, I finally felt better.
Since then, I have not had much of a problem with Mirena. Cramping has been minimal and intermittent after that, but mostly non-existent. Spotting is minimal. The strings seem to be okay and not interfering with anything. I checked for them and was relieved to find that they are thin, short, and tucked away into a corner near the cervix, where they do not cause any discomfort for me or my husband. I have developed some strange outbreak of acne around the back of my neck and scalp, but it started back when I had quite Seasinique and was not yet on Mirena. I am hoping that will clear up after the hormonal stuff settles in for the long haul. I worried more about it when I didn't make the connection to the hormones.
My one-month check-up with ultrasound is scheduled for 3/11/13, and I suspect everything will go fine. So far, the worst of it was the day of insertion and the day after. I'm glad for that and hoping the good news will continue.
On a side note, I've been dealing with a lot of long-forgotten Fibromyalgia symptoms lately, which seemed strange, since I'd been doing so well since taking better care of my body with a healthier diet and more exercise. I didn't put this together until just recently, but I suspect the painful insertion, vasovagal response or/and the lack of activity for those crampy two days may have triggered a fibro flare. In the past few weeks, I was having severe pains and couldn't figure out why they were lingering for days after doing so much better with my Fibromyalgia symptoms.
All in all, I think Mirena is working well for me, after paying the higher "Fibro cost" of all the insertion pain and fibro flare up symptoms. I'm hoping that in 5 years, I'll be ready to face the challenge a little better by expecting to cramp up for a couple days and deal with a fibro flare for a few weeks afterwards. It's nice not to have to worry about condoms or pills, though, to be honest, I didn't really mind taking pills so much. What I did mind was the outrageous cost of the pills. Since my insurance is pretty much covering the entire cost of Mirena, I'm happy to have this option.
When my blood pressure was not dropping to normal after many months off of Savella, my gynecologist ordered me off Seasonique because the estrogen in it could be contributing to the high blood pressure. So, I quit taking last October and thought about alternative birth control methods. At the doctor's suggestion, I did some research and eventually decided to go with the Mirena IUD. It contains hormones, but not estrogen. I found out my insurance plan covered the cost, save for a $25 co-pay, which is lots less expensive than the pills which are not covered at all under my insurance plan, for some reason.
There are few key things to know about Mirena, if you are interested.
- It's an IUD with hormones, but it does not contain estrogen.
- The IUD is inserted by a doctor in the office, as a quick, outpatient procedure.
- Getting an IUD inserted is easier for the patient during her period (days 1-7), but can be placed at other times, if necessary.
- Many women on Mirena have fewer, lighter, or shorter periods, and for many women, periods stop altogether. (I've got my fingers crossed for the last one!)
- Getting an IUD placed is easier for women who have given vaginal birth to 1 or more children (or any other cervix-dilating procedure such as D&C, abortion, etc.).
- Once placed, Mirena is effective for 5 years of birth control, and it is highly effective (almost 100%).
- Most women have no side effects, but some women do have some side effects.
- Maintenance after placement consists of a follow-up visit with ultrasound to confirm proper placement after the first month, then checking the strings monthly, and getting regular doctor check-ups yearly.
It seemed that many women loved it and some even had a second one inserted after 5 years on the first one. But others hated it because they got a lot of side effects, like weight gain, mood disorders, etc. They were very, very angry and wanted nobody else to experience what they had. Although, while reading some of the detailed negative posts, I suspected at least some of the unlucky women had other issues that may have contributed to their symptoms or perhaps they should have mentioned to their doctors before deciding to go on Mirena. (Think about it. If a mom of 2 young kids is getting Mirena because she is terribly afraid of getting pregnant again, and she's mentioning her husband being unhelpful in her rant, she's stressed already, with or without Mirena.) I think they had untreated or undiagnosed conditions that did not manifest until they went on Mirena, because many of them did not seem to have been on any hormonal treatment before Mirena.
I liked the benefits and low cost of Mirena, but knew that there was a possibility that I might have some horrific side effects myself, since I seem to be sensitive to many medications, and because I have this damned Fibromyalgia. However, since I'd been on one hormonal birth control treatment or another for at least 10 years now, I was willing to find out, rather than wonder about it for the rest of my life. If it doesn't work out, I could always have it removed and switch to a non-estrogen pill or other method.
So, my first challenge was to wait for a period. As I mentioned, I have not been off birth control pills for a very long time, but I do remember not having regular ones. They tended to be occur at anywhere from 5 to 7 to even 9 weeks between periods, and they were always kind of miserable, which is why reducing and predicting them with Seasonique worked so well for me all these years. So, in October, after the initial period that came with stopping Seasonique, I switched to the estrogen-free Jolivette "mini-pill", not realizing until a month later, that there were no "dummy" pills for the period in these packs. They are meant to be taken continuously with periods that may or may not happen, and if they do, with no real predictability. For me, nothing happened. (Doctor, why didn't you mention this when you prescribed it?)
By Thanksgiving, I had already decided on and ordered Mirena and it was shipped to my doctor's office, waiting for my period to arrive so I could schedule the insertion. I realized after no period came that I would be waiting a long time if I stayed on Jolivette, so I quit that and switched to condoms. It was a little inconvenient but I wanted to get going on the Mirena project already.
So then it was nothing all month until late evening on Christmas Eve, the floodgates opened and the period was on. However, timing was absolutely terrible for getting Mirena. The next day was a holiday, and the rest of the week, I had travel plans. I had to wait another month or so for the next opportunity. Everything I'd read was about getting the thing inserted during the period, especially for someone like me with no babies or anything dilating my cervix. So, I waited.
You know how a watched pot never boils? When you actually wait for your period, it's an agonizingly long wait. All of January came and went without much more than a spot or two. On February 5th, I had a bit more spotting than usual and called the doctor's office, indicating that I'm not sure what's going on, or if this is it or not, but wanted to make an appointment while something was happening. Luckily, a mere few minutes after making a Thursday appointment for Mirena insertion, the floodgates opened again and confirmed the period had arrived.
The nurse told me it would be a quick, 10-minute procedure to get the IUD installed, and that I'd be fine to go to work afterwards. Nothing to it. Easy-peazy. I scheduled a half-day with the morning off work. I remember being told to take a pain medication (I took Aleve) before the appointment. Then she mentioned it would be done by a different doctor from the one I see. I figured my doctor wasn't available, so, no big deal. I was all set for Thursday morning and excited to finally have this ordeal taken care of and behind me. I was eager to find out if this solution would work for me.
When my appointment finally arrived, I met the new doctor (new to me), he assured me that he'd been installing IUDs for 30 years now, and that he would take good care of me. He was friendly and courteous, and the nurse was also very nice and helpful. I still missed my own doctor (because she knows me and I know her), but I figured this should not be too big a deal. Maybe she's not so experienced with these things. I'm probably better off, I reasoned.
So, the doctor explained all the details, showed me the product, and we got started. He warned me when things would feel uncomfortable or crampy, just like my regular doctor. He said he had to first measure the uterus, which would feel crampy, then the insertion was to feel crampy again. Then a snip of the strings and I'd be all done. It sounded a lot like the yearly check-ups with my regular gynecologist. I was not at all ready for the level of pain that I experienced.
The crampy feeling from this was a thousand times more intense than I'm used to feeling during yearly exams. Why did nobody online warn me of this terribly painful experience? Maybe it wasn't this bad for most people? Maybe I didn't read all the right posts. I do have Fibromyalgia, which can amplify even non-painful pressure as awful pains.
I was embarrassed to be unable to prevent my yelling "ow" during the procedure. I noticed also that my face felt really hot all of a sudden. Then I felt weird and a wave of cold sweat came on. I described it to my doctor, in case he needed to know. He knew what it was and didn't seem too surprised, but he and the nurse both seemed concerned, despite my joking a bit to let them know that I'm not a big baby. I knew there'd be discomfort, and I assumed it was just a temporary problem that I'd get over, which helped me keep my spirits up. They gave me some juice to sip to feel a little better and were very nice to me.
The doctor felt bad about the pain and apologized for making me hurt. I knew he didn't mean to. He explained that I had a vasovagal response, which "some women" get during this kind of procedure. I had never heard of this term before, but they explained and it seemed reasonable. I'd look it up once I was out of there, I decided. The nurse and the doctor were both very repeatedly clear about letting me know that I could lie there as long as I needed to before getting dressed, since the room would not be needed for many hours. I asked the nurse why everyone was so concerned about me and asked if they thought I would faint or something. She said yes. I was also very pale, apparently, so I guess all the blood wanted to leave my head, which could lead to a fainting spell. I told her I'd never fainted, so maybe that helped me this time.
I sipped on my juice and tried to relax for a bit, alone in the room, but I didn't feel comfortable lying on the table half-naked for so long. So I slowly got up and got dressed, but felt very crampy, so I still needed to sit for a while. Then I was in a hurry to leave because I suddenly felt the need to use the bathroom, so I checked out and spent some time in the rest room. I was supposed to get to work for the afternoon, but as I slowly made my way to my car, I realized it wasn't worth it to work in this much distracting pain. I headed home instead and notified my boss that I couldn't come in after all. I did not want to move at all for the rest of the day and the next. (I had to call in sick again the next day, Friday.) I parked on the couch with a heating pad on my belly, just enduring the constant cramping and trying to think about the future, when the pain would be gone. By Saturday, I finally felt better.
Since then, I have not had much of a problem with Mirena. Cramping has been minimal and intermittent after that, but mostly non-existent. Spotting is minimal. The strings seem to be okay and not interfering with anything. I checked for them and was relieved to find that they are thin, short, and tucked away into a corner near the cervix, where they do not cause any discomfort for me or my husband. I have developed some strange outbreak of acne around the back of my neck and scalp, but it started back when I had quite Seasinique and was not yet on Mirena. I am hoping that will clear up after the hormonal stuff settles in for the long haul. I worried more about it when I didn't make the connection to the hormones.
My one-month check-up with ultrasound is scheduled for 3/11/13, and I suspect everything will go fine. So far, the worst of it was the day of insertion and the day after. I'm glad for that and hoping the good news will continue.
On a side note, I've been dealing with a lot of long-forgotten Fibromyalgia symptoms lately, which seemed strange, since I'd been doing so well since taking better care of my body with a healthier diet and more exercise. I didn't put this together until just recently, but I suspect the painful insertion, vasovagal response or/and the lack of activity for those crampy two days may have triggered a fibro flare. In the past few weeks, I was having severe pains and couldn't figure out why they were lingering for days after doing so much better with my Fibromyalgia symptoms.
All in all, I think Mirena is working well for me, after paying the higher "Fibro cost" of all the insertion pain and fibro flare up symptoms. I'm hoping that in 5 years, I'll be ready to face the challenge a little better by expecting to cramp up for a couple days and deal with a fibro flare for a few weeks afterwards. It's nice not to have to worry about condoms or pills, though, to be honest, I didn't really mind taking pills so much. What I did mind was the outrageous cost of the pills. Since my insurance is pretty much covering the entire cost of Mirena, I'm happy to have this option.
Thursday, February 7, 2013
Fibro Fog & Language Problems
I recently found this article that discusses fibro fog, specifically language problems. I found it to be relevant because I am challenged at work by people who prefer face-to-face interactions or phone calls to my emails and texts.
Part of my job involves meaningful discussions with just about anyone else in my company. Even if they could understand why I rely heavily on written communications, I don't think it's necessary for me to explain it to them all. But when I hear myself talk in meetings sometimes, I have become painfully aware of how halting and imprecise I sound when I cannot find the appropriate words. Even worse, it's distracting to me to have others tell me they cannot follow what I am saying. Then I might lose my train of thought.
As a compromise, when I need to discuss things with others, I find that starting to draft an email helps me figure out what I want to say, but then I make the phone call instead of emailing. It doesn't help when unforeseen topics arise, but it's something. Luckily I'm not easily embarrassed, so I keep pushing myself to be better despite the discomfort. It's a tough world out there sometimes, so I guess it's a good thing that I don't back down from challenges too easily.
Do you have these problems with words? If so, what do you do to cope?
Part of my job involves meaningful discussions with just about anyone else in my company. Even if they could understand why I rely heavily on written communications, I don't think it's necessary for me to explain it to them all. But when I hear myself talk in meetings sometimes, I have become painfully aware of how halting and imprecise I sound when I cannot find the appropriate words. Even worse, it's distracting to me to have others tell me they cannot follow what I am saying. Then I might lose my train of thought.
As a compromise, when I need to discuss things with others, I find that starting to draft an email helps me figure out what I want to say, but then I make the phone call instead of emailing. It doesn't help when unforeseen topics arise, but it's something. Luckily I'm not easily embarrassed, so I keep pushing myself to be better despite the discomfort. It's a tough world out there sometimes, so I guess it's a good thing that I don't back down from challenges too easily.
Do you have these problems with words? If so, what do you do to cope?
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Friday, February 1, 2013
Attitude is Everything
I recently visited wonderful rheumatologist, to follow up on my last visit. Good news! My blood pressure is no longer ridiculously high. The last time I had it measured was mid-October by my gynecologist, who ordered me off Seasonique because of estrogen contributing to the high blood pressure. Back then, it was as high as 150/97 (the last and highest of 3 readings in that one visit). Today, it's down to 125/87 (the second and lower of 2 readings today). According to the wikipedia page on Blood Pressure, I moved from stage 1 Hypertension to Prehypertension. I'm just one category away from normal. Isn't that what we fibromites all strive for? Normal? I'm getting there.
My doctor was also very proud of my improvements in overall pain levels and lifestyle changes to be healthier. I've been eating healthier foods and making sure I get some exercise in at least every couple of days. I'm keeping up Yoga on Wednesdays and my Whole Foods salad lunch habit. I've also added elliptical workouts (usually 15 or 30 minutes) and climbing stairs in the building where I work. (4 floors, up is all I can do right now, but I'm pretty impressed anyway.)
Since my symptoms are mostly under control, she is keeping me on my nightly Cyclobenzaprine (Flexeril) for muscle relaxing and sleep, and leaving the rest up to me to control by living my life as well as I can. Being on few medications is just the way I like it!
Although, I have been noticing some more heart rhythm issues lately, especially upon waking, and I did not realize until looking up the link just now that this medication warns about that. I've had atrial tachycardia since I was a teenager, and episodes are usually short, but can last hours, and they can be slight or kind of scary feeling. I wish I'd known before my last appointment, so I could ask the doctor about it. I'll have to note that and give her a call to see what she says about it. Every doctor I've seen about it pretty much shrugs and says some people just have this and they aren't sure why. One cardiologist offered to fix it with a new heart surgery that would cut the electrical route that triggers the arrhythmia. I don't feel it's enough of a concern to risk surgery, so I am just kind of dealing with it.
Because I still mentioned that my right hip gets stiff if I sit too long, she also asked me to do several hip stretches every day. She gave me a printout with instructions for five different ones to do. I have been adding them to my morning routine already.
Oddly, though, after bragging about how great I've been doing, I had a weird kink in my back, headaches, knee pain, and some minor digestion issues, plus tinnitus and a weird hour-long episode of partial deafness in my right ear. Did I jinx myself? At any rate, I think I may just be paying attention to many of the things that were called out during the appointment, and feeling just about average for me lately, if that makes any sense. I do still deal with FMS and the unpredictable symptoms. But, I'm not going to worry about it and just assume it's nothing unusual. I'm on my way to feeling more normal and feeling more in control of my health these days. YAY! Attitude is everything!
Wanna jump for joy with me? Well, if you're not up to it, you can just do a mental happy dance, if you like.
My doctor was also very proud of my improvements in overall pain levels and lifestyle changes to be healthier. I've been eating healthier foods and making sure I get some exercise in at least every couple of days. I'm keeping up Yoga on Wednesdays and my Whole Foods salad lunch habit. I've also added elliptical workouts (usually 15 or 30 minutes) and climbing stairs in the building where I work. (4 floors, up is all I can do right now, but I'm pretty impressed anyway.)
Since my symptoms are mostly under control, she is keeping me on my nightly Cyclobenzaprine (Flexeril) for muscle relaxing and sleep, and leaving the rest up to me to control by living my life as well as I can. Being on few medications is just the way I like it!
Although, I have been noticing some more heart rhythm issues lately, especially upon waking, and I did not realize until looking up the link just now that this medication warns about that. I've had atrial tachycardia since I was a teenager, and episodes are usually short, but can last hours, and they can be slight or kind of scary feeling. I wish I'd known before my last appointment, so I could ask the doctor about it. I'll have to note that and give her a call to see what she says about it. Every doctor I've seen about it pretty much shrugs and says some people just have this and they aren't sure why. One cardiologist offered to fix it with a new heart surgery that would cut the electrical route that triggers the arrhythmia. I don't feel it's enough of a concern to risk surgery, so I am just kind of dealing with it.
Because I still mentioned that my right hip gets stiff if I sit too long, she also asked me to do several hip stretches every day. She gave me a printout with instructions for five different ones to do. I have been adding them to my morning routine already.
Oddly, though, after bragging about how great I've been doing, I had a weird kink in my back, headaches, knee pain, and some minor digestion issues, plus tinnitus and a weird hour-long episode of partial deafness in my right ear. Did I jinx myself? At any rate, I think I may just be paying attention to many of the things that were called out during the appointment, and feeling just about average for me lately, if that makes any sense. I do still deal with FMS and the unpredictable symptoms. But, I'm not going to worry about it and just assume it's nothing unusual. I'm on my way to feeling more normal and feeling more in control of my health these days. YAY! Attitude is everything!
Wanna jump for joy with me? Well, if you're not up to it, you can just do a mental happy dance, if you like.
Sunday, December 30, 2012
My Life at Forty
Ahh, life. What is life? It's consciousness, the ability to use energy and do things. It's about choices as well as things that just kinda happen. Some of my experiences are the results of my choices or the choices of others. Some things also just happen. Sometimes it's fun and happy; other times, not so much. I turned 40 earlier this month. I never used to care about age or understand why some people lie about their age. "It's just a number," I would say to people. 30 was no big deal. I felt fine with being a thirty-year-old. It was just another birthday, though I do remember having a small party to celebrate it. I suppose it was an excuse to to have a celebration and enjoy some pizza and cake with people. Oh, and drinks. Many, many drinks. It was a good time. I eased into adulthood, perhaps happy to leave the immature twenties behind.
In the weeks leading up to my 40th birthday, however, I kind of felt something new. I kind of kept reflecting upon my age, my health, my death. Will I live another 40 years? Is this really the middle of my life? The past forty years seem to have been short - will the next forty also feel short, or even shorter?
I'm still not much for lying about age or denying it to myself. I am facing these thoughts, mostly out loud to my husband, who turned 40 last year. It's weird how I never anticipated this birthday being much more than some random milestone assigned by society. I'm starting to get what those "Over the Hill" birthday party favors and gag gifts are about. It's a way for everyone to acknowledge these feelings, but tempered with some humor. I suppose celebrating birthdays with people both older and younger than yourself is really the right way to do it. The older folks have gone through it already themselves, and survived! That's encouraging. The younger folks remind me of my younger days, not expecting to know what reaching older ages is like, both physically and mentally.
Now that I've been "wearing" 40 for a few weeks, it seems to be less scary. I still have to face the facts that I am now in a new age group. Mammograms, colonoscopies, and bifocals are surely lining up for me in the near future. I've had a few mammograms already - and yeah, OUCH - they are not fun. But assuming the results keep coming back negative for any abnormalities, I'm okay with that.
I came close to getting a colonoscopy back when my IBS was flaring up over several months, but as luck would have it, my awesome GI gave me a new medication that actually worked and we canceled the exam. I am also aware of the process, as my husband has had several colonoscopies, due to his Crohn's disease. It's not fun, lasts longer than a mammogram, and is pretty inconvenient, too. Still, I can get through that. I also have had an endoscopy done, if that counts for anything.
As for bifocals, I'm already nearsighted since high school, and usually opt for contact lenses to correct my distance vision. Since that car accident in 2006, though, my vision has changed in several ways, and continues to change rather frequently. I already notice my very near vision has become blurry, making reading fine print challenging. Again, though, perhaps a prescription change is not so terrible. I've been managing corrective lenses thus far. I can probably handle that. I guess.
So, these are not so scary. Aging gracefully may still be an option for me. Many folks make it to 80 and 90 in relatively good health. With lifelong conditions like Fibromyalgia, Chronic Myofascial Pain, and Asthma, I understand I have additional challenges, but I also understand that being as fit as I can be is the key to empowering me with the best health I can achieve. I know that eating healthy and staying active goes a long way toward preserving good health, so I will strive to do those things.
Some other recent events have also caused me to reflect on my age and mortality.
Near the end of the workday on my 40th birthday, my husband suffered a severe kidney stone attack. The stone was 6.5mm across and was stuck very near the left kidney. I'll spare you the details, but life was miserable for him for several weeks thanks to this surprise. We had to cancel my birthday party, and he felt bad about that, but I wanted him to feel better and stay close to home in case of any complications. He's passed some of it and is feeling much better now, finally.
I also recently learned that my mother-in-law had suffered a stroke. This was not her first, but it seems more serious that the one she had before I met her. Although she was told that one side of her body will not recover this time, I am hoping that she can beat the odds and regain some function and sensation that was lost. Thank goodness it was not her dominant side and she can still do some things. I'm also glad that she can talk and remember us all.
As we approach the year 2013, I have listed a few new resolutions (which I never used to do until 2012) that take into consideration my age, my health, my family, and my wants and needs. I wish to be more responsible with my own health, as an investment of my old age as well as to help relieve others of the need to worry about me. This includes considering making decisions and arrangements for what will happen to my remains when I die. I feel it's the responsible thing to do.
When life manages to give me warnings, I strive to make the most of it, whether it's through me or others, and learn something from it. I won't live my life sheltered, but I will not live recklessly if I can help it.
Take care and do pay attention to your own body and look for the warning signs that could help keep you healthy and young at heart. I hope the next year brings you closer to your personal goals and opens your eyes to wonderful opportunities!
Thursday, November 8, 2012
That Last Straw
Have you ever just had a terrible day when one thing after the next just went wrong? Maybe it was more than a day. I've been dealing with some bad news and stressful things happening and they culminated into a moment that, unfortunately, resulted in a mini nervous breakdown, because of that last straw that broke Benia's back.
Singly, my stressful things weren't that unbearable. They're no fun, but I can handle them alone. It's when they all decide to happen together and overlap into an overwhelming mess of crap that I have trouble.
For example, work-related stress over deadlines, earnings, etc. are also typical of most employed people. My surprisingly high blood pressure is one more diagnosis for me to deal with. Major household appliances expiring and requiring immediate action for replacement happen. Then a loved one's health problems creeping in with a flare-up of unknown severity. My car's check engine light decided to get in on the action. Then a health insurance change with serious financial implications was suddenly forced upon us with little time to plan and research. My asthma was feeling the stress and making sure I noticed it, no matter how much I fought it.
Then I got a phone message from my parents - people who love me and miss me but have no idea how much strength I muster on any given day, just to get by and pretend I'm normal. There is also a language barrier, as they are immigrants and I am American-born. Our conversations are limited to what we can successfully express in the others' comfortable language. I called back and just mention my having a bad day and before I know it, I'm getting lectured on how I can't possibly have anything to stress over because I have no kids. THAT was the last straw.
I could not handle one more thing and yet there it was. I broke. It was extremely unfortunate that I broke down while on that call, because without being able to explain that life just took a shit on me recently, I ended up not making any sense at all and ended up seeming secretive. Who wants to list all their problems to people who immediately judge and compare them to their own standards? I am not secretive or dishonest. I just did not have a good way to convey my bad day and explain my emotional fragility.
THEN, THAT phone call added yet another unnecessary straw to my load. Since then, I've been accused of keeping secrets and lying to cover up some problem that would be catastrophic. My own parents had two days to speculate the very worst since my breakdown. Today they made an excuse to come see me so they could find out more. UGH, I did this so wrong! They came and we talked. Their accusations were not helping me. I did my best to explain that I just had a bad string of luck but that I'm okay. Nobody is getting a divorce or fighting or dying or whatever other awful things they imagined. I also told them that I know that they are trying to help and that I appreciate it, but I just cannot take it right now. They mean well, but the advice I get from them is just SO unhelpful! If they only realized how much they are just making things worse with their loving help. Knowing that they cannot understand and that they meant well is all that kept me from losing my mind all over again.
I need a break, I tried to explain. I think they got it, but they are far too generous with their advice about every last thing they think I need help with. They cannot help me. They make assumptions that I cannot seem to debunk for them. There are details about my life that I am unwilling to have to share just to get them to stop helping. Eat this. Take that supplement. It works for them. OMG, just stop. Thank you, Mom and Dad, seriously, for caring, but I just don't need this advice.
This is how I'm doing. I will have better days, but not for a while, I think. :P
Singly, my stressful things weren't that unbearable. They're no fun, but I can handle them alone. It's when they all decide to happen together and overlap into an overwhelming mess of crap that I have trouble.
For example, work-related stress over deadlines, earnings, etc. are also typical of most employed people. My surprisingly high blood pressure is one more diagnosis for me to deal with. Major household appliances expiring and requiring immediate action for replacement happen. Then a loved one's health problems creeping in with a flare-up of unknown severity. My car's check engine light decided to get in on the action. Then a health insurance change with serious financial implications was suddenly forced upon us with little time to plan and research. My asthma was feeling the stress and making sure I noticed it, no matter how much I fought it.
Then I got a phone message from my parents - people who love me and miss me but have no idea how much strength I muster on any given day, just to get by and pretend I'm normal. There is also a language barrier, as they are immigrants and I am American-born. Our conversations are limited to what we can successfully express in the others' comfortable language. I called back and just mention my having a bad day and before I know it, I'm getting lectured on how I can't possibly have anything to stress over because I have no kids. THAT was the last straw.
I could not handle one more thing and yet there it was. I broke. It was extremely unfortunate that I broke down while on that call, because without being able to explain that life just took a shit on me recently, I ended up not making any sense at all and ended up seeming secretive. Who wants to list all their problems to people who immediately judge and compare them to their own standards? I am not secretive or dishonest. I just did not have a good way to convey my bad day and explain my emotional fragility.
THEN, THAT phone call added yet another unnecessary straw to my load. Since then, I've been accused of keeping secrets and lying to cover up some problem that would be catastrophic. My own parents had two days to speculate the very worst since my breakdown. Today they made an excuse to come see me so they could find out more. UGH, I did this so wrong! They came and we talked. Their accusations were not helping me. I did my best to explain that I just had a bad string of luck but that I'm okay. Nobody is getting a divorce or fighting or dying or whatever other awful things they imagined. I also told them that I know that they are trying to help and that I appreciate it, but I just cannot take it right now. They mean well, but the advice I get from them is just SO unhelpful! If they only realized how much they are just making things worse with their loving help. Knowing that they cannot understand and that they meant well is all that kept me from losing my mind all over again.
I need a break, I tried to explain. I think they got it, but they are far too generous with their advice about every last thing they think I need help with. They cannot help me. They make assumptions that I cannot seem to debunk for them. There are details about my life that I am unwilling to have to share just to get them to stop helping. Eat this. Take that supplement. It works for them. OMG, just stop. Thank you, Mom and Dad, seriously, for caring, but I just don't need this advice.
This is how I'm doing. I will have better days, but not for a while, I think. :P
Thursday, October 11, 2012
Blood Pressure - Still High Despite Getting off Savella
As you may or may not recall, the earlier part of my year has been tarnished with an unnecessary spike in blood pressure that could have been prevented by my former Fibromyalgia doctor. Here's the post describing the worst of it. Once I realized the cause of the blood pressure spike - two medications that should not have been taken together - I promptly got off both drugs, expecting my blood pressure to return to normal soonafter.
Unfortunately, months after getting off the drugs, my blood pressure still remains elevated, as I discovered during a check-up yesterday morning. All my life, my blood pressure levels have been normal until January and February of 2012. Now it seems something from that episode was changed in my body that cannot so easily be reversed. After all, I've made several additional changes in my life to be healthier, starting in March or so when I adopted the habit of eating a healthy Whole Foods salad on workdays, and continuing through June when I started attending weekly yoga classes. This blood pressure thing makes no sense to me.
The doctor I saw yesterday was my gynecologist, and when she saw the elevated blood pressure reading taken by the nurse, she measured it herself, and got a slightly higher reading than the first one. She wanted to make sure, so she also measured it again at the end of my exam. I was calm and relaxed and she witnessed it. The third reading was the highest, just as when I went to my primary doctor for the blood pressure spike earlier this year. I hypothesized that taking blood pressure seems to raise it, but nobody confirmed that for me. My final reading yesterday was something like 146/97, I believe. She decided she ordered me to stop taking my current birth control pills (Seasonique/Amethia) immediately, since they contain estrogen, and apparently estrogen can contribute to high blood pressure. This is news to me. I was also somewhat surprised at the order, since I'd been taking these pills for many, many years now, when my blood pressure was fine. Perhaps there's a cumulative effect or something else I'm not understanding.
At any rate, she switched me to a progesterone-only pill while I mull over all of my options and my needs. What I liked about my previous pills was the ability to minimize periods and their awful symptoms (for me), and being able to predict and schedule around periods. With the progesterone-only pills (Micronor/Jovilette), I'm back to having less predictable periods and more of them. I'm also considering Mirena, which my doctor suggested. There are still some unknowns about whether it's the right choice for me, but I'm still researching that.
Hopefully, getting off the estrogen will reduce my blood pressure. I strive to be healthier, but seeing my blood pressure remain elevated through these healthier habit months is a bit frustrating. I will read up on all the factors that can contribute to high blood pressure and see if I can change any other things for the better. I do know there is a hereditary component, and my parents deal with hypertension. Plus I'll be 40 years old in a couple months, and age is also a factor. This old body's not getting any younger, but I only get the one, so I'll do my best to take good care of it.
Unfortunately, months after getting off the drugs, my blood pressure still remains elevated, as I discovered during a check-up yesterday morning. All my life, my blood pressure levels have been normal until January and February of 2012. Now it seems something from that episode was changed in my body that cannot so easily be reversed. After all, I've made several additional changes in my life to be healthier, starting in March or so when I adopted the habit of eating a healthy Whole Foods salad on workdays, and continuing through June when I started attending weekly yoga classes. This blood pressure thing makes no sense to me.
The doctor I saw yesterday was my gynecologist, and when she saw the elevated blood pressure reading taken by the nurse, she measured it herself, and got a slightly higher reading than the first one. She wanted to make sure, so she also measured it again at the end of my exam. I was calm and relaxed and she witnessed it. The third reading was the highest, just as when I went to my primary doctor for the blood pressure spike earlier this year. I hypothesized that taking blood pressure seems to raise it, but nobody confirmed that for me. My final reading yesterday was something like 146/97, I believe. She decided she ordered me to stop taking my current birth control pills (Seasonique/Amethia) immediately, since they contain estrogen, and apparently estrogen can contribute to high blood pressure. This is news to me. I was also somewhat surprised at the order, since I'd been taking these pills for many, many years now, when my blood pressure was fine. Perhaps there's a cumulative effect or something else I'm not understanding.
At any rate, she switched me to a progesterone-only pill while I mull over all of my options and my needs. What I liked about my previous pills was the ability to minimize periods and their awful symptoms (for me), and being able to predict and schedule around periods. With the progesterone-only pills (Micronor/Jovilette), I'm back to having less predictable periods and more of them. I'm also considering Mirena, which my doctor suggested. There are still some unknowns about whether it's the right choice for me, but I'm still researching that.
Hopefully, getting off the estrogen will reduce my blood pressure. I strive to be healthier, but seeing my blood pressure remain elevated through these healthier habit months is a bit frustrating. I will read up on all the factors that can contribute to high blood pressure and see if I can change any other things for the better. I do know there is a hereditary component, and my parents deal with hypertension. Plus I'll be 40 years old in a couple months, and age is also a factor. This old body's not getting any younger, but I only get the one, so I'll do my best to take good care of it.
Wednesday, September 26, 2012
Success! ...and Stress
To follow up on my last post, I have been pretty good about not "cracking" my right wrist for the past month. I caught myself on a few occasions, but I think the month has mostly allowed me to break the habit. I still need to pay attention to maintain and not slip back into old habits because it seems to have made a difference in the lightning nerve pains I'd been having in my right forearm. I cannot recall having any episodes in my right forearm during the past month.
This little experiment is by no means conclusive with regard to a cause and effect. I realize one month is not a large enough sample time to conclude the not cracking (much) prevents nerve pain, since the episodes can be very infrequent for any number of reasons. However, it's enough incentive for me to keep trying to not crack and keep watching for other correlations. Besides, who wouldn't prefer to having some sort of control over these wacky symptoms to just taking whatever luck provides?
That said, I know that my neck, back, shoulders, ankles, and knees all still crack, even if I try not to. I'll still be as good as I can be about avoiding it if I can. (Sometimes it hurts if I don't crack my back or neck.)
In other news, my work life has become unbelievably stressful in the past month. I know it's serious because I'm having asthma attacks at work in addition to all the unpleasantness. I'm on the brink of breaking down mentally from the pressures put upon me. I almost had a nervous breakdown during my lunchtime yoga session today! I would have thought yoga would help, but failing at all the demanding poses just added to my frustrations. I kept it together by realizing I couldn't easily justify a breakdown to my classmates. "It's just yoga!" I imagined they'd say. And they're right. Yoga, of all things, should not contribute to my stress, and it most certainly should not be allowed to be the straw that broke Benia's back! After pondering the ridiculousness of it all, I managed to get through it and deal. I knew I'd be better as soon as I'd gotten through it all and feel the accomplishment. I did notice a lot of muscle tension and cramping today, though. Probably due to the work stresses.
I know it's not right to let it affect me like this, but somehow I've gotten myself stuck in a terrible situation where I'm juggling several high-priority projects all at once and the rest of my team is doing the same. Personally, I think my boss has lost his marbles about what is physically possible, but how does one go about addressing this with the person who controls one's income and other important things? On paper, yeah - you go to your stressful person and say, hey, please lay off on the stressful stuff please. In reality, there's a lot of apprehension about doing that, worry about doing it wrong, worry about consequences that affect not only myself but others. Ugh... I will have better days. I just have to believe in that.
I'm doing what I can with what I've got for now. Hopefully I'll live to post another day...
This little experiment is by no means conclusive with regard to a cause and effect. I realize one month is not a large enough sample time to conclude the not cracking (much) prevents nerve pain, since the episodes can be very infrequent for any number of reasons. However, it's enough incentive for me to keep trying to not crack and keep watching for other correlations. Besides, who wouldn't prefer to having some sort of control over these wacky symptoms to just taking whatever luck provides?
That said, I know that my neck, back, shoulders, ankles, and knees all still crack, even if I try not to. I'll still be as good as I can be about avoiding it if I can. (Sometimes it hurts if I don't crack my back or neck.)
In other news, my work life has become unbelievably stressful in the past month. I know it's serious because I'm having asthma attacks at work in addition to all the unpleasantness. I'm on the brink of breaking down mentally from the pressures put upon me. I almost had a nervous breakdown during my lunchtime yoga session today! I would have thought yoga would help, but failing at all the demanding poses just added to my frustrations. I kept it together by realizing I couldn't easily justify a breakdown to my classmates. "It's just yoga!" I imagined they'd say. And they're right. Yoga, of all things, should not contribute to my stress, and it most certainly should not be allowed to be the straw that broke Benia's back! After pondering the ridiculousness of it all, I managed to get through it and deal. I knew I'd be better as soon as I'd gotten through it all and feel the accomplishment. I did notice a lot of muscle tension and cramping today, though. Probably due to the work stresses.
I know it's not right to let it affect me like this, but somehow I've gotten myself stuck in a terrible situation where I'm juggling several high-priority projects all at once and the rest of my team is doing the same. Personally, I think my boss has lost his marbles about what is physically possible, but how does one go about addressing this with the person who controls one's income and other important things? On paper, yeah - you go to your stressful person and say, hey, please lay off on the stressful stuff please. In reality, there's a lot of apprehension about doing that, worry about doing it wrong, worry about consequences that affect not only myself but others. Ugh... I will have better days. I just have to believe in that.
Friday, August 24, 2012
Ulnar Nerve Pain in Right Wrist?
I did some digging on the web to try to find out more about what's going on with the lightning pains I've been having lately. I decided to start with seeing if I could find out the name of the forearm nerve that seems to be firing a lot. While researching and experiencing some pain, I made a point to try to notice where I instinctively grab my arm and try to rub the pain out. It turns out, the pain occurs on the inner forearm, near the wrist, on the pinky side of the arm. I always assumed it was the middle, but it's off to the edge a bit.
From what I'm seeing, this is the ulnar nerve, which is frequently associated with a condition called "tennis elbow", since it runs up to the elbow. There's a great picture of the ulnar nerve's location here.
Something that occurred to me while doing this specific research is that I have a strange propensity and compulsion to bend my right wrist into its full range of motion to "pop" the joint. My right wrist makes about 3-4 pops per... I dunno, per cracking instance?... each time I do it. The left one does not crack at all, even if I try. I was aware that I habitually do this, but I never thought it might be related to the nerve pain.
Most of the joints on my body have a lot of frequent cracking properties, especially my neck and ankles, and though I don't crack my knuckles, they would if I tried. Going down stairs is when my ankles go to town. I'm a walking bowl of Rice Krispies when I go down to the kitchen in the mornings. I cannot help it. They just pop and crack every couple of steps, over and over again. I do not know why this is, but it's been going on for many years now.
Having established a hypothesis about my cracking wrist being related to the nerve pain, I naturally wondered if I may be causing or contributing to my nerve problem. They are in the same location, so it seems plausible. Bending my wrist may cause the nerve to move or get trapped or something, I figure. Anyway, I decided I should try to avoid snapping this joint to see if it lessens the frequency of the nerve zaps in my right forearm. I feel I may be onto something.
Cracking my right wrist is one of those things that I do subconsciously but have always underestimated just how frequently I actually do it. It may even be tic-like behavior. Now that I'm trying to catch myself doing it, or better yet, before doing it, I've realized that I do it a lot more frequently than I thought. I have caught myself about to do it about five times before noon today. I don't think I've actually managed to crack it yet today, but if I did, that's even more instances that I did not manage to notice or prevent.
This is a highly speculative experiment on my part, but since there is probably no risk to trying to quit this habit, I think it's safe for me to find out if it helps. If this seems helpful, I may go on a quest to try to avoid cracking the rest of my joints, if I can. The yoga poses may be helpful in strengthening my joints, if that makes any difference. I'll report my findings after giving this a good trial, perhaps a month from today.
From what I'm seeing, this is the ulnar nerve, which is frequently associated with a condition called "tennis elbow", since it runs up to the elbow. There's a great picture of the ulnar nerve's location here.
Something that occurred to me while doing this specific research is that I have a strange propensity and compulsion to bend my right wrist into its full range of motion to "pop" the joint. My right wrist makes about 3-4 pops per... I dunno, per cracking instance?... each time I do it. The left one does not crack at all, even if I try. I was aware that I habitually do this, but I never thought it might be related to the nerve pain.
Most of the joints on my body have a lot of frequent cracking properties, especially my neck and ankles, and though I don't crack my knuckles, they would if I tried. Going down stairs is when my ankles go to town. I'm a walking bowl of Rice Krispies when I go down to the kitchen in the mornings. I cannot help it. They just pop and crack every couple of steps, over and over again. I do not know why this is, but it's been going on for many years now.
Having established a hypothesis about my cracking wrist being related to the nerve pain, I naturally wondered if I may be causing or contributing to my nerve problem. They are in the same location, so it seems plausible. Bending my wrist may cause the nerve to move or get trapped or something, I figure. Anyway, I decided I should try to avoid snapping this joint to see if it lessens the frequency of the nerve zaps in my right forearm. I feel I may be onto something.
Cracking my right wrist is one of those things that I do subconsciously but have always underestimated just how frequently I actually do it. It may even be tic-like behavior. Now that I'm trying to catch myself doing it, or better yet, before doing it, I've realized that I do it a lot more frequently than I thought. I have caught myself about to do it about five times before noon today. I don't think I've actually managed to crack it yet today, but if I did, that's even more instances that I did not manage to notice or prevent.
This is a highly speculative experiment on my part, but since there is probably no risk to trying to quit this habit, I think it's safe for me to find out if it helps. If this seems helpful, I may go on a quest to try to avoid cracking the rest of my joints, if I can. The yoga poses may be helpful in strengthening my joints, if that makes any difference. I'll report my findings after giving this a good trial, perhaps a month from today.
Sunday, August 19, 2012
Sharp Nerve Pains in Left Shoulder and Neck
Lately, I've been working on improving my diet and doing regular exercise. I've been pretty good about attending yoga and getting out for walks, and have also been good about eating fresh, healthy salads for lunch, and getting nutrients into my diet. Last Friday, I tried a couple of veggie juice drinks instead of salad, to see if I would notice any difference. Since watching Fat, Sick & Nearly Dead a few days ago, I gained more hopes that eating nutritious foods could be key to healing the body, or at least give it a fighting chance against the destructive forces challenging it. There's a lot of crap in our processed foods, and avoiding it should help me.
Anyway, I tried a "Columbia Gorge: Just
Greens" drink first. It was green juice made just from organic vegetables and nothing else. Two pounds of veggies went into the bottle, so I figured it would have lots of nutrients. It wasn't as tasty as I'd hoped. Part of it had to do with celery being the first ingredient. I'm not a fan of celery. The drink was 50 calories per serving, with 2 servings in the bottle.
I also tried this "Naked: Green Machine" one, which was the same size bottle as the other one, also contained lots of veggies, but also plenty of fruit. I figured this one would taste better, so I saved it for relieving my taste buds after the other drink. I also worried I'd get hungry, so I had both as a single meal. The flavor of the Naked juice was great. It tastes like it's just fruit juice. More fruit means more calories and natural sugars though, so I won't be having these regularly. I believe this one was 140 calories per serving, with 2 servings in the bottle. However, it's good to know that the option is there if I need some healthy stuff on the go.
There's also a troubling symptom affecting more often lately. I am noticing a new location of searing, lightning-like, nerve pain on top of my left shoulder, going from my neck out toward the shoulder. This is the third location of this type of pain that I've had to deal with. The back of my right thigh is the first and oldest trouble-spot, and the pain jolts I still get in that area (affecting the sciatic nerve) has made me jump and shriek from sheer surprise and the sudden, severe pain level achieved. When it hits, it usually keeps firing, rather quickly, for several minutes.
When I was first injured in that rear-end collision in 2006, there was about a week or so of the nerve firing almost constantly, and it even affected the left leg in the same area. It was maddening to try to get through the day feeling like someone was chasing me with a hot brand, poking constantly into the backs of my legs. I even decided that if it didn't subside, or if it was found to be untreatable and would affect me for life, I would probably have to think about killing myself. It's not the kind of pain you can ignore. I was being forced to constantly pay attention to the pain. There are some dull pains you can ignore or get used to, so you can move on with your life, but this one is not like that at all. It's a pain that startles you into acknowledgment over and over again, with only the rare second of relief in between jolts. This sicatic pain jolt thing affected me even before the car accident, but only very rarely. I used to get these jolts maybe one day in a year and then forget all about it.
Anyway, since the accident, the left sciatic nerve has been much more active, though I have had months without much of a flare-up there. However, I'd begun to feel a similar jolt of pain in my right forearm. It would just fire, unexpectedly, at random moments, on the underside of my forearm, right into my wrist. And it's only been the right arm thus far. This is the second location. Here, the attacks would occur only occasionally - much less frequently than the leg thing, anyway.
But now, I've got this kind of pain occurring in my left shoulder-neck area, and it's been firing at least a few times every hour today. It was doing it pretty frequently yesterday, too. I also recall having to deal with it during the work week for the past week or two.
I'm confused about what this pain pattern means. Naturally, I'm worried about some sort of nerve problem or damage, or impingement, and the fact that it seems to be spreading is no comfort at all. I suppose my frequently spastic muscles could be squeezing these nerves, but with Chronic Myofascial Pain, I've been having problems with a lot or all of my muscles, not just certain ones. I have considered the possibility that posture and habits could be causing these areas to be susceptible to either muscle spasms, which may be squeezing my nerves. What I don't have is a treatment or prevention plan, other than to keep moving and stretching as much as I can. I'm sticking to doing yoga at least weekly, and being sure to move around, even on bad days when I may not feel up to it.
If you recognize these nerve pain symptoms, or have any helpful information for me, please share in the comments. Thank you.
Anyway, I tried a "Columbia Gorge: Just
Greens" drink first. It was green juice made just from organic vegetables and nothing else. Two pounds of veggies went into the bottle, so I figured it would have lots of nutrients. It wasn't as tasty as I'd hoped. Part of it had to do with celery being the first ingredient. I'm not a fan of celery. The drink was 50 calories per serving, with 2 servings in the bottle. I also tried this "Naked: Green Machine" one, which was the same size bottle as the other one, also contained lots of veggies, but also plenty of fruit. I figured this one would taste better, so I saved it for relieving my taste buds after the other drink. I also worried I'd get hungry, so I had both as a single meal. The flavor of the Naked juice was great. It tastes like it's just fruit juice. More fruit means more calories and natural sugars though, so I won't be having these regularly. I believe this one was 140 calories per serving, with 2 servings in the bottle. However, it's good to know that the option is there if I need some healthy stuff on the go.
There's also a troubling symptom affecting more often lately. I am noticing a new location of searing, lightning-like, nerve pain on top of my left shoulder, going from my neck out toward the shoulder. This is the third location of this type of pain that I've had to deal with. The back of my right thigh is the first and oldest trouble-spot, and the pain jolts I still get in that area (affecting the sciatic nerve) has made me jump and shriek from sheer surprise and the sudden, severe pain level achieved. When it hits, it usually keeps firing, rather quickly, for several minutes.
When I was first injured in that rear-end collision in 2006, there was about a week or so of the nerve firing almost constantly, and it even affected the left leg in the same area. It was maddening to try to get through the day feeling like someone was chasing me with a hot brand, poking constantly into the backs of my legs. I even decided that if it didn't subside, or if it was found to be untreatable and would affect me for life, I would probably have to think about killing myself. It's not the kind of pain you can ignore. I was being forced to constantly pay attention to the pain. There are some dull pains you can ignore or get used to, so you can move on with your life, but this one is not like that at all. It's a pain that startles you into acknowledgment over and over again, with only the rare second of relief in between jolts. This sicatic pain jolt thing affected me even before the car accident, but only very rarely. I used to get these jolts maybe one day in a year and then forget all about it.
Anyway, since the accident, the left sciatic nerve has been much more active, though I have had months without much of a flare-up there. However, I'd begun to feel a similar jolt of pain in my right forearm. It would just fire, unexpectedly, at random moments, on the underside of my forearm, right into my wrist. And it's only been the right arm thus far. This is the second location. Here, the attacks would occur only occasionally - much less frequently than the leg thing, anyway.
But now, I've got this kind of pain occurring in my left shoulder-neck area, and it's been firing at least a few times every hour today. It was doing it pretty frequently yesterday, too. I also recall having to deal with it during the work week for the past week or two.
I'm confused about what this pain pattern means. Naturally, I'm worried about some sort of nerve problem or damage, or impingement, and the fact that it seems to be spreading is no comfort at all. I suppose my frequently spastic muscles could be squeezing these nerves, but with Chronic Myofascial Pain, I've been having problems with a lot or all of my muscles, not just certain ones. I have considered the possibility that posture and habits could be causing these areas to be susceptible to either muscle spasms, which may be squeezing my nerves. What I don't have is a treatment or prevention plan, other than to keep moving and stretching as much as I can. I'm sticking to doing yoga at least weekly, and being sure to move around, even on bad days when I may not feel up to it.
If you recognize these nerve pain symptoms, or have any helpful information for me, please share in the comments. Thank you.
Tuesday, July 31, 2012
Fibro is Real
This is a good article for people who have been accused of, or have accused others of, being a hypochondriac when it comes to the symptoms of Fibromyalgia. Those of us who suffer learn first-hand that the physical symptoms that affect us are ask too real. We have read the research to support it, and do our best to live with these symptoms. We definitely do not need the additional burden of ignorant accusations.
Is Fibromyalgia All in My Head?
Is Fibromyalgia All in My Head?
Tuesday, July 24, 2012
Letter to My Future Self
Wow, summer is just flying by! Where does the time go? I can't believe July is almost over.
I have been doing relatively well with fibro, being active, and eating healthier. I still have issues, like trouble sleeping and pain symptoms, but overall, I feel much better lately and have been using my (unpaid) intermittent FMLA time less.
One idea I had been thinking about doing for a blog post is writing to my future self. Many of us write in out journals and blogs about how things are going at the present moment, but even if we don't do it regularly, we may, someday, look back and read an old entry, for whatever reason. Why not tuck in a little message to our future selves?
My message to me, whenever it may be that I read it, and however I am feeling then, follows...
Dear Benia,
I hope you are well. I am doing much better lately. I've been eating healthy lunch salads from Whole Foods most work days, and doing Vinyasa yoga each Wednesday for an hour.
My new fibro doctor is very nice and reduced my medications to just one for fibro, Cyclobenzaprine (aka Flexeril). I am doing well as it helps with muscle spasms as well as sleep. (I take it at bedtime.)
I am currently off all supplements until I need them and doing okay. My IBS symptoms are under control, thanks to my realizing I was getting too much of some fat-soluble vitamins from my diet, and did not need additional supplementation.
Work is busy and a bit stressful at the moment, for both of us, actually. We are hoping to make some positive changes there.
The master bathroom remodel is mostly finished, though we are still waiting for a couple of doors to come in and get installed. The project started in April! I'm just glad it's almost over.
The weather has been extremely hot and dry this year. The summer weather started at the last week of winter, in March. We've never seen anything like it! Many if our native plants are blooming early this year. They are surviving, though, and the wildlife is happy to enjoy it, too.
We have also been having a lot of freak thunderstorms - almost exclusively. They roll in, pour rain for a bit with plenty of wind, lightning, and even hail. Then they move on and it's back to hot, calm, sunny weather.
It's been a strange year, but I'm trying to focus on the positives. I am going to update my WRAP soon, since I have learned a lot about myself since I created it.
Hope you are doing great. I love you, and don't ever forget that!
Benia
Wednesday, June 27, 2012
The Mack Truck is Back
So I had two good weeks without many symptoms, feeling good and in control of things with diet and exercise happening and everything. Then Monday, something started up and I'm flaring up for some reason. Was I too greedy with doing things while feeling good that I triggered a flare by being too active and not resting?
Last night I was awake all night. Not so much as a nap came over me - all flippin' night. I tried relaxing in bed with ear plugs, without ear plugs, tried lying on my back, my sides, tried thinking of pleasant things. Nothing. Hours and hours of stressful thoughts about various things going on at work that have been bothering me lately kept creeping back into my mind and and I could not fall asleep. The stress broke me. I don't know what it is about the middle of the night, but I felt so hopeless and frustrated. I moved to the couch and read blog posts in my Google Reader on my phone to try to take my mind off things, since I'd given up on sleep. Forget work today. There's just no way. I am a wreck. I took a much-needed sick day.
It seems my abdominal area is tender and painful lately, mostly near the left side. Air bubbles or ulcers - I don't know any more. It doesn't seem to matter what I eat, unless the tiny bits of apple I found in yesterday's fruit started something, but I picked them out. (I'm allergic to raw apple skins.) I just feel crappy. Then there's the back spasm in my right side that came back to life. Even the hydrocodone I took at bed time wasn't helping that. I wonder if the medication kept me up instead of making me drowsy. Side effects don't always make sense in my body.
I've been trying to stay on this side of the sane/crazy borderline, but last night I think I wandered over the line a bit. My mental state seems back in good enough order, but my body is stuck in physical disarray at the moment, and notice that it affects my thinking a bit.
As always, when I stay home due to illness, I can't help but feel the invisible pressure of all those chores and tasks I have to do. There is some compromise where I go and do a couple of easy things, but I have a hard time just resting, which is what I need to be doing. For instance, I have been meaning to update my WRAP and wish I would do that, but I know I should not be at the computer too long with this spasm screaming at me. I washed up our farm veggies (we have them delivered weekly from a local CSA, Wellhausen Farms) and made a healthy salad for lunch, but it took a very long time, and I was tempted to just grab something like cereal and leave it all undone. Despite all the healthy ingredients in my salad today, my belly is also complaining again and uncomfortable. I folded some laundry, too, because I knew it would nag at me if I didn't. Despite my fatigue, I cannot rest easily at all. This is one of the common frustrating symptoms of Fibromyalgia.
I hate that I can feel so great, then shitty, so quickly. It makes me feel bipolar in some ways. I was hoping I could coast through the summer feeling almost like a normal. I guess I had forgotten my limitations again and overdone it with activities. I will learn from this flare, just like with every flare, but I'm not enjoying this lesson. Ugh. Time for me to lie down. I hope my next post is more fun than this one.
Last night I was awake all night. Not so much as a nap came over me - all flippin' night. I tried relaxing in bed with ear plugs, without ear plugs, tried lying on my back, my sides, tried thinking of pleasant things. Nothing. Hours and hours of stressful thoughts about various things going on at work that have been bothering me lately kept creeping back into my mind and and I could not fall asleep. The stress broke me. I don't know what it is about the middle of the night, but I felt so hopeless and frustrated. I moved to the couch and read blog posts in my Google Reader on my phone to try to take my mind off things, since I'd given up on sleep. Forget work today. There's just no way. I am a wreck. I took a much-needed sick day.
It seems my abdominal area is tender and painful lately, mostly near the left side. Air bubbles or ulcers - I don't know any more. It doesn't seem to matter what I eat, unless the tiny bits of apple I found in yesterday's fruit started something, but I picked them out. (I'm allergic to raw apple skins.) I just feel crappy. Then there's the back spasm in my right side that came back to life. Even the hydrocodone I took at bed time wasn't helping that. I wonder if the medication kept me up instead of making me drowsy. Side effects don't always make sense in my body.
I've been trying to stay on this side of the sane/crazy borderline, but last night I think I wandered over the line a bit. My mental state seems back in good enough order, but my body is stuck in physical disarray at the moment, and notice that it affects my thinking a bit.
As always, when I stay home due to illness, I can't help but feel the invisible pressure of all those chores and tasks I have to do. There is some compromise where I go and do a couple of easy things, but I have a hard time just resting, which is what I need to be doing. For instance, I have been meaning to update my WRAP and wish I would do that, but I know I should not be at the computer too long with this spasm screaming at me. I washed up our farm veggies (we have them delivered weekly from a local CSA, Wellhausen Farms) and made a healthy salad for lunch, but it took a very long time, and I was tempted to just grab something like cereal and leave it all undone. Despite all the healthy ingredients in my salad today, my belly is also complaining again and uncomfortable. I folded some laundry, too, because I knew it would nag at me if I didn't. Despite my fatigue, I cannot rest easily at all. This is one of the common frustrating symptoms of Fibromyalgia.
I hate that I can feel so great, then shitty, so quickly. It makes me feel bipolar in some ways. I was hoping I could coast through the summer feeling almost like a normal. I guess I had forgotten my limitations again and overdone it with activities. I will learn from this flare, just like with every flare, but I'm not enjoying this lesson. Ugh. Time for me to lie down. I hope my next post is more fun than this one.
Monday, June 11, 2012
Getting Too Much of a Good Thing: Supplements
I think I've finally broken the spell of my latest IBS flare-up! I was headed down one path, but switched gears when I thought of the second path - the one that just might be the answer. Let me explain...
As you may know, despite a welcome increase in energy and function, my belly has been all about IBS for the past month. I got tired of waiting for this flare to calm down, since it's been causing me problems every single day for all this time (even through my recent vacation in New Orleans) so I finally broke down and ordered an herbal remedy. It's called Iberogast.
My niece recommended this product to me after our great GI doctor (she also recommended him to me and he's great) recommended it to her. I thought I'd give it a shot and see if it changes anything.
When my husband saw how much alcohol is in it (31%), he joked that it would be cheaper for me to use Jägermeister instead. I scoffed until I started wondering what kind of ingredients are in "Jäger" and did some research.
There are 56 ingredients in Jägermeister (vs. the nine herbs in Iberogast) and many of them are a secret, but considering both Jäger and Iberogast are from both Germany, and have both been touted as effective digestive aids, I have to wonder if both might be equally effective.
Anyway, Iberogast comes in a small, glass bottle with a top that releases the fluid in drops, so you can count them for appropriate dosing. Adult dosage is 20 drops into a drink with each meal, as needed. I took this with five total meals during just a couple days, with no change in my symptoms, before I stopped using it. I had intended on giving it at least a full week's trial before determining anything about its efficacy, but before the second day was through, I got an idea about what might really be causing my symptoms, so I switched gears to find out.
My hunch was that perhaps my body was trying to rid itself of excess vitamins and minerals. Too many nutrients?! It seemed crazy, but the more I learned about fat-soluble vitamins and digging into my Calorie Count food log history and nutrition analysis, the more plausible this seemed to me.
I'd been taking a lot of supplements every day for a while now, some per my previous doctor's recommendation, some per my own conclusions about what I need:
Several weeks back, I started eating more nutritious lunches during the work week and eventually decided to get my lunch from the nearby Whole Foods Market every workday that I could. I loved getting delicious, nutritious food every day and not having to worry about dinner or weekends as much. It worked out great, I thought.
I checked the analysis tool in my Calorie Count food logs (good thing I had this handy) and saw that many of the nutrients tracked were well over 100% for the day for me, on average. Vitamin C was ridiculously high (>1200% average per day). Vitamin A was very high (>300%). Calcium was high (~150%). I was even getting more iron than I needed (~200%). Who gets that much nutrition in a day?! Well, me, I guess. I don't even know how much vitamin D, vitamin B, or magnesium I was getting. Those nutrients aren't even tracked in CC, but since I was adding these supplements to my nutrient-rich diet, I wouldn't be surprised if they were crazy high, too.
So, reading up on vitamins and nutrients. I learned that some vitamins, like vitamin C and vitamin B are water-soluble, so getting more than enough is no big deal - the kidneys flush them out and you flush them down when you go pee. (What a way to waste vitamin C!) But other vitamins, like vitamin A and vitamin D, are not water-soluble, and the body can get too much of them. I also know that magnesium is an ingredient in epsom salt and other laxatives. So I wondered if all these supplements, or even just one of them, could be causing my body these daily diarrhea episodes. To find out, I was going to skip just the magnesium, but I decided to stop taking ALL of my supplements, just to see if anything changes.
I stopped taking them last Thursday and haven't taken any since. By Sunday, I noticed a change: no poopie all day! I was hopeful that this meant the end of the diarrhea, or at least a break from it. I still experienced a crampy few minutes this morning, after breakfast, but later today, I actually had a regular movement. I was so glad I wanted to tell people at work about it and celebrate... but of course I didn't.
Nothing's for sure, of course, but these are positive signs that I'm on the right track with this vitamin thing. For now, I'm glad I was able to put this together and elicit a positive change myself. I will wait and see if I continue to get relief by avoiding vitamins I apparently don't need, thanks to my healthier diet. I guess the takeaway here is that you actually can get the nutrients you need from food and you can get too much of some nutrients. Pay attention to what you're eating and if you have a mysterious IBS flare while eating healthy foods, consider quitting the supplements to see if it helps. If not, there's always plan B, whatever it may be for you.
As you may know, despite a welcome increase in energy and function, my belly has been all about IBS for the past month. I got tired of waiting for this flare to calm down, since it's been causing me problems every single day for all this time (even through my recent vacation in New Orleans) so I finally broke down and ordered an herbal remedy. It's called Iberogast.My niece recommended this product to me after our great GI doctor (she also recommended him to me and he's great) recommended it to her. I thought I'd give it a shot and see if it changes anything.
When my husband saw how much alcohol is in it (31%), he joked that it would be cheaper for me to use Jägermeister instead. I scoffed until I started wondering what kind of ingredients are in "Jäger" and did some research.
There are 56 ingredients in Jägermeister (vs. the nine herbs in Iberogast) and many of them are a secret, but considering both Jäger and Iberogast are from both Germany, and have both been touted as effective digestive aids, I have to wonder if both might be equally effective.
Anyway, Iberogast comes in a small, glass bottle with a top that releases the fluid in drops, so you can count them for appropriate dosing. Adult dosage is 20 drops into a drink with each meal, as needed. I took this with five total meals during just a couple days, with no change in my symptoms, before I stopped using it. I had intended on giving it at least a full week's trial before determining anything about its efficacy, but before the second day was through, I got an idea about what might really be causing my symptoms, so I switched gears to find out.
My hunch was that perhaps my body was trying to rid itself of excess vitamins and minerals. Too many nutrients?! It seemed crazy, but the more I learned about fat-soluble vitamins and digging into my Calorie Count food log history and nutrition analysis, the more plausible this seemed to me.
I'd been taking a lot of supplements every day for a while now, some per my previous doctor's recommendation, some per my own conclusions about what I need:
- multi-vitamin (includes iron)
- vitamin C
- vitamin D3
- super B-complex
- magnesium malate (twice a day)
- calcium
- fish oil
- probiotic
Several weeks back, I started eating more nutritious lunches during the work week and eventually decided to get my lunch from the nearby Whole Foods Market every workday that I could. I loved getting delicious, nutritious food every day and not having to worry about dinner or weekends as much. It worked out great, I thought.
I checked the analysis tool in my Calorie Count food logs (good thing I had this handy) and saw that many of the nutrients tracked were well over 100% for the day for me, on average. Vitamin C was ridiculously high (>1200% average per day). Vitamin A was very high (>300%). Calcium was high (~150%). I was even getting more iron than I needed (~200%). Who gets that much nutrition in a day?! Well, me, I guess. I don't even know how much vitamin D, vitamin B, or magnesium I was getting. Those nutrients aren't even tracked in CC, but since I was adding these supplements to my nutrient-rich diet, I wouldn't be surprised if they were crazy high, too.
So, reading up on vitamins and nutrients. I learned that some vitamins, like vitamin C and vitamin B are water-soluble, so getting more than enough is no big deal - the kidneys flush them out and you flush them down when you go pee. (What a way to waste vitamin C!) But other vitamins, like vitamin A and vitamin D, are not water-soluble, and the body can get too much of them. I also know that magnesium is an ingredient in epsom salt and other laxatives. So I wondered if all these supplements, or even just one of them, could be causing my body these daily diarrhea episodes. To find out, I was going to skip just the magnesium, but I decided to stop taking ALL of my supplements, just to see if anything changes.
I stopped taking them last Thursday and haven't taken any since. By Sunday, I noticed a change: no poopie all day! I was hopeful that this meant the end of the diarrhea, or at least a break from it. I still experienced a crampy few minutes this morning, after breakfast, but later today, I actually had a regular movement. I was so glad I wanted to tell people at work about it and celebrate... but of course I didn't.
Nothing's for sure, of course, but these are positive signs that I'm on the right track with this vitamin thing. For now, I'm glad I was able to put this together and elicit a positive change myself. I will wait and see if I continue to get relief by avoiding vitamins I apparently don't need, thanks to my healthier diet. I guess the takeaway here is that you actually can get the nutrients you need from food and you can get too much of some nutrients. Pay attention to what you're eating and if you have a mysterious IBS flare while eating healthy foods, consider quitting the supplements to see if it helps. If not, there's always plan B, whatever it may be for you.
Friday, June 1, 2012
Doctors Make Hall of Shame List
Wow, I just read this article, featuring a hall of shame for a bunch of fibromyalgia doctors with a definite conflict of interest between taking care of their patients and helping pharmaceutical companies make more money. Not too surprisingly, one of my former doctors made the list. (I am in Illinois, so I'll let you guess who it is.)
Although, to be fair, despite my husband referring to him as a quack, I must say that the drug he put me on was not one of the big three - he was the one who put me on Pristiq. This was several years ago, before his suburban Chicago office that I was visiting was suddenly shut down. At the time Savella wasn't even approved yet.
Also, his big thing at the time was the theory that FMS was really just a yeast overgrowth condition gone systemic. He convinced me to go yeast-free for 3 months. He actually prescribes this avoidance diet for 6 months, but we had to stop at 3 because I'd lost so much weight on it. However, I felt worse on it and we concluded that it was not my problem. He claimed I was the first patient who didn't improve on this diet. Sorry. Really, I did my best to make sure I didn't cheat so I would know if I had any control over my symptoms.
I also didn't like how how simplified FMS to just two basic symptoms: pain and fatigue. I got a hold of a video of his about the whole yeast overgrowth theory for Fibromyalgia patients and kept repeating that "pain and fatigue is Fibromyalgia." As a patient, it got irritating pretty quickly. What an oversimplification!
As the article mentions, some of these doctors used to be about the patients, but since then have gotten mixed up with suspiciously pro-drug company studies and such. Even my last doctor seemed okay until he pushed me to switch from Pristiq to Savella. Ever since then, I felt I was on my own. He didn't call me back while having horrendous withdrawals during the initial switch, and he didn't call back when Savella was causing my blood pressure to skyrocket and my head to ache all the time. They must have gotten to him, too. I left him after weaning off Savella by myself. BY MYSELF! I had a doctor who had nothing to do with me while I was in crisis. No thanks and good-bye.
My current doctor is very nice and she reduced my prescriptions by substituting two kinds for one, old one, which is available in generic form, which translates to cheaper for me. She listens to me and my needs. She respects my desire to be on fewer meds, due to side effects causing more problems than my Fibro, it seems. She's good. I worry though. Does everyone have a price? Am I going to go in there one day and see a different side of her? I sure hope not, but I'm on the lookout for those subtle cues.
At any rate, since then, I've learned lots from Fibromyalgia Network, including the fact that all their funding comes from membership fees - none is from any advertisers. They publish lots of interesting articles and study findings in their quarterly journals and, although some of them credit doctors from this unfortunate list, most of them seem to make good sense. There is lots of advice about how to cope and do stretches and exercises that are beneficial for us. A lot of the scientific stuff is broken down with graphics that help us understand how chemicals can get out of balance or how drugs affect our bodies.
Be your own advocate, fellow fibromites. Look out for those who seem to be helpful, then push products on you. There's no shortage of sleazebags out there willing to prey on desperate people in pain. If someone is selling you something, be skeptical. Do your homework and learn as much as you can from many, objective sources.
Although, to be fair, despite my husband referring to him as a quack, I must say that the drug he put me on was not one of the big three - he was the one who put me on Pristiq. This was several years ago, before his suburban Chicago office that I was visiting was suddenly shut down. At the time Savella wasn't even approved yet.
Also, his big thing at the time was the theory that FMS was really just a yeast overgrowth condition gone systemic. He convinced me to go yeast-free for 3 months. He actually prescribes this avoidance diet for 6 months, but we had to stop at 3 because I'd lost so much weight on it. However, I felt worse on it and we concluded that it was not my problem. He claimed I was the first patient who didn't improve on this diet. Sorry. Really, I did my best to make sure I didn't cheat so I would know if I had any control over my symptoms.
I also didn't like how how simplified FMS to just two basic symptoms: pain and fatigue. I got a hold of a video of his about the whole yeast overgrowth theory for Fibromyalgia patients and kept repeating that "pain and fatigue is Fibromyalgia." As a patient, it got irritating pretty quickly. What an oversimplification!
As the article mentions, some of these doctors used to be about the patients, but since then have gotten mixed up with suspiciously pro-drug company studies and such. Even my last doctor seemed okay until he pushed me to switch from Pristiq to Savella. Ever since then, I felt I was on my own. He didn't call me back while having horrendous withdrawals during the initial switch, and he didn't call back when Savella was causing my blood pressure to skyrocket and my head to ache all the time. They must have gotten to him, too. I left him after weaning off Savella by myself. BY MYSELF! I had a doctor who had nothing to do with me while I was in crisis. No thanks and good-bye.
My current doctor is very nice and she reduced my prescriptions by substituting two kinds for one, old one, which is available in generic form, which translates to cheaper for me. She listens to me and my needs. She respects my desire to be on fewer meds, due to side effects causing more problems than my Fibro, it seems. She's good. I worry though. Does everyone have a price? Am I going to go in there one day and see a different side of her? I sure hope not, but I'm on the lookout for those subtle cues.
At any rate, since then, I've learned lots from Fibromyalgia Network, including the fact that all their funding comes from membership fees - none is from any advertisers. They publish lots of interesting articles and study findings in their quarterly journals and, although some of them credit doctors from this unfortunate list, most of them seem to make good sense. There is lots of advice about how to cope and do stretches and exercises that are beneficial for us. A lot of the scientific stuff is broken down with graphics that help us understand how chemicals can get out of balance or how drugs affect our bodies.
Be your own advocate, fellow fibromites. Look out for those who seem to be helpful, then push products on you. There's no shortage of sleazebags out there willing to prey on desperate people in pain. If someone is selling you something, be skeptical. Do your homework and learn as much as you can from many, objective sources.
Wednesday, May 30, 2012
Yogurt for Breakfast, Yoga for Lunch
Despite my continuing, daily IBS moments, I had a great time visiting the French Quarter of New Orleans last week! This was my third trip to the Quarter, my last one in May of 2005, before Hurricane Katrina hit. Luckily, things are pretty much the same again, though we noticed some of the smaller one-off businesses were replaced by those owned by one or more other businesses. Anyway, the food was delicious and there was plenty to drink as well. We are older now, so we had to cut back to just two meals per day. (I don't know how we used to do it eating all day long!) There was a lot of walking to do as well, and though Don worried I wouldn't be up to it, I made an extra effort to prove him wrong. I needed breaks, of course, but I still had a fun time! We took the train this time, too - a new experience for both of us. It was more fun than driving and less annoying than going through security at the airport. (We're boycotting the airlines until they stop being ridiculous to the passengers about all this TSA bullshit.) It was a long ride and both ways we traveled through the night. Sleeping on a train - let me rephrase that - TRYING to sleep on a train is not as much fun, but we survived and enjoyed the new experience.
Now the party's over and it's back to work and back on track with the healthy diet. I feel fatter then when I left, but hey, I was on vacation. Lack of stress is worth a weight-loss setback in my book.
I'm back in Calorie Count's Calorie Camp and logging my foods and studying my nutritional intake. Today, I started my day with a fun yogurt mix. At my house, we like to minimize waste and buy the large yogurt containers and get either plain or vanilla flavor. When it comes time to have some, we dress up dinners with plain wherever sour cream might be called for, or mix in some fruit or preserves for a sweet snack. I cut up a peach into a bowl, added some French Vanilla Stonyfield Farm yogurt, and sprinkled in some generic Grape Nuts for a fun breakfast. I'm still dealing with this darn IBS flare-up (no break during vacation either, unfortunately) so I'm hoping the probiotics and occasional yogurt will help calm things down eventually. There seems to be no rhyme or reason to what causes my symptoms to flare-up or calm down. I'm speculating something slower or cumulative, multiple triggers are doing something, but it's so hard to pin it all down.
In addition to healthy diet efforts, I started my very first yoga session today, at lunchtime. (Note: my fibromyalgia doctor has recommended that I try some yoga and start slowly.) My employer has coordinated with a yoga instructor to come visit our building every Wednesday (starting last week, so I missed that first session) and welcome us to an hour-long session during our lunch hour. I had done yoga at home years before I developed Fibromyalgia, Chronic Myofascial Pain, or IBS, or any of my other current health issues, but this was my first yoga class. It was good. I felt the work in muscles that aren't used to doing that much work. I shook and did some sweating. (Unfortunately, there are no shower facilities so I did my best with a change of clothes, a wet wipee "wash" and some deodorant.) I kept up with most of the poses and even opted for some of the extra challenge poses, but I did have to fall back on others here and there. I had the most trouble with my wrists after all the push-ups and hand support, but hopefully, I'll build up some strength over time. Overall, I'm happy with the convenience of the class and being able to enjoy it with my coworkers as well. The cost is $10 per session, which seems reasonable to me for the convenient scheduling. Our instructor was also nice and helpful in correcting posture when necessary. I'm looking forward to the next one.
I didn't have my traditional Whole Foods buffet salad today because of yoga today, but I planned ahead yesterday while there, and bought some self-mixed trail mix and a few nut/fruit bars I'd been meaning to try. I also brought a banana to work today. They all helped to keep me full and give me good nutrition with some fun flavors, while allowing me to graze while working.
I did, however, make the mistake of eating before the yoga session, though, which I did because I was hungry and wasn't thinking, but... NOTE TO SELF: when you have IBS that seems to act up whenever eating anything, be mindful of the timing of any activities that may keep you from a toilet. I managed to finish things up in time, but it was kind of close, and I felt a little off on the way to class. Next time I'll work out hungry and eat later. See? Learning. It's all good. I like progress, even slow progress. Anything's better than that downward spiral that can suck you down. I'm working hard to avoid that.
Now the party's over and it's back to work and back on track with the healthy diet. I feel fatter then when I left, but hey, I was on vacation. Lack of stress is worth a weight-loss setback in my book.
I'm back in Calorie Count's Calorie Camp and logging my foods and studying my nutritional intake. Today, I started my day with a fun yogurt mix. At my house, we like to minimize waste and buy the large yogurt containers and get either plain or vanilla flavor. When it comes time to have some, we dress up dinners with plain wherever sour cream might be called for, or mix in some fruit or preserves for a sweet snack. I cut up a peach into a bowl, added some French Vanilla Stonyfield Farm yogurt, and sprinkled in some generic Grape Nuts for a fun breakfast. I'm still dealing with this darn IBS flare-up (no break during vacation either, unfortunately) so I'm hoping the probiotics and occasional yogurt will help calm things down eventually. There seems to be no rhyme or reason to what causes my symptoms to flare-up or calm down. I'm speculating something slower or cumulative, multiple triggers are doing something, but it's so hard to pin it all down.
In addition to healthy diet efforts, I started my very first yoga session today, at lunchtime. (Note: my fibromyalgia doctor has recommended that I try some yoga and start slowly.) My employer has coordinated with a yoga instructor to come visit our building every Wednesday (starting last week, so I missed that first session) and welcome us to an hour-long session during our lunch hour. I had done yoga at home years before I developed Fibromyalgia, Chronic Myofascial Pain, or IBS, or any of my other current health issues, but this was my first yoga class. It was good. I felt the work in muscles that aren't used to doing that much work. I shook and did some sweating. (Unfortunately, there are no shower facilities so I did my best with a change of clothes, a wet wipee "wash" and some deodorant.) I kept up with most of the poses and even opted for some of the extra challenge poses, but I did have to fall back on others here and there. I had the most trouble with my wrists after all the push-ups and hand support, but hopefully, I'll build up some strength over time. Overall, I'm happy with the convenience of the class and being able to enjoy it with my coworkers as well. The cost is $10 per session, which seems reasonable to me for the convenient scheduling. Our instructor was also nice and helpful in correcting posture when necessary. I'm looking forward to the next one.
I didn't have my traditional Whole Foods buffet salad today because of yoga today, but I planned ahead yesterday while there, and bought some self-mixed trail mix and a few nut/fruit bars I'd been meaning to try. I also brought a banana to work today. They all helped to keep me full and give me good nutrition with some fun flavors, while allowing me to graze while working.
I did, however, make the mistake of eating before the yoga session, though, which I did because I was hungry and wasn't thinking, but... NOTE TO SELF: when you have IBS that seems to act up whenever eating anything, be mindful of the timing of any activities that may keep you from a toilet. I managed to finish things up in time, but it was kind of close, and I felt a little off on the way to class. Next time I'll work out hungry and eat later. See? Learning. It's all good. I like progress, even slow progress. Anything's better than that downward spiral that can suck you down. I'm working hard to avoid that.
Thursday, May 10, 2012
Great Overview Video of FMS
Today I came across a great video. It's a doctor giving a presentation about Fibromyalgia. He describes what it is, what it isn't, how it's diagnosed, how it's treated, what patients experience, how Fibromyalgia pain has been studied and measured to be different than in other people. There are detailed descriptions of many topics and lots of tips on treatment (especially non-drug treatments) and I even learned a few things. At the very least, my foggy brain was reminded of things I'd forgotten I knew.
As I watched, I found this video to be a useful educational tool for both Fibromyalgia patients and their loved ones alike. Direct people who are confused about FMS to this video, especially to certain areas relevant to the questions that perhaps you cannot find the right words to explain. It's an hour and a half long, so if they really want to know, they'll watch. That said, you may need to take breaks and watch it in manageable chunks. I also suggest keeping a pad and pen nearby, for any notes you may want to jot down for yourself. There is also a question-and-answer segment at the end as well with questions from the audience.
I've been diagnosed for over four years now, and have been experiencing chronic pain for over five years. Having read and learned so much since then about Fibromyalgia, I must say that watching this overview was a great review that kind of puts all the pieces together nicely.
I realize, though, that not all aspects of the condition are mentioned in this presentation. For instance, pacing and stress are briefly mentioned, but not given as much time as they might deserve, if relating the portion of time in the video vs. importance in a fibromite's world. He also doesn't go into great detail about every last symptom that might be grouped into the syndrome, though he picks several of the big ones. This is a pretty detailed overview of the condition with what we know about it now. Hopefully we will learn more in the coming years about the cause and better ways to treat or (dare to dream) cure it.
I hope you enjoy this video and learn something from it. Share as needed. I also hope that friends and family members of Fibromyalgia patients, and perhaps others in the medical community or general population, will watch at least some portion of this video and try to understand this confounding syndrome which, even Dr. Gross admits, doesn't really belong in any particular medical category because it affects everything.
As I watched, I found this video to be a useful educational tool for both Fibromyalgia patients and their loved ones alike. Direct people who are confused about FMS to this video, especially to certain areas relevant to the questions that perhaps you cannot find the right words to explain. It's an hour and a half long, so if they really want to know, they'll watch. That said, you may need to take breaks and watch it in manageable chunks. I also suggest keeping a pad and pen nearby, for any notes you may want to jot down for yourself. There is also a question-and-answer segment at the end as well with questions from the audience.
I've been diagnosed for over four years now, and have been experiencing chronic pain for over five years. Having read and learned so much since then about Fibromyalgia, I must say that watching this overview was a great review that kind of puts all the pieces together nicely.
I realize, though, that not all aspects of the condition are mentioned in this presentation. For instance, pacing and stress are briefly mentioned, but not given as much time as they might deserve, if relating the portion of time in the video vs. importance in a fibromite's world. He also doesn't go into great detail about every last symptom that might be grouped into the syndrome, though he picks several of the big ones. This is a pretty detailed overview of the condition with what we know about it now. Hopefully we will learn more in the coming years about the cause and better ways to treat or (dare to dream) cure it.
I hope you enjoy this video and learn something from it. Share as needed. I also hope that friends and family members of Fibromyalgia patients, and perhaps others in the medical community or general population, will watch at least some portion of this video and try to understand this confounding syndrome which, even Dr. Gross admits, doesn't really belong in any particular medical category because it affects everything.
Fibromyalgia: It's Real It's Manageable What You Can Do
Tuesday, May 8, 2012
Party's Over
I was afraid my fibro "remission" was ending when I started feeling icky in the belly a couple days ago. I handled it as an IBS flare-up. No rhyme or reason. It just happens. I accept that.
Then yesterday I had trouble breathing and felt very fatigued, out of nowhere. I worked through it because I have a very urgent and important project to work on so I pushed on, stoically. I doubt my boss appreciates my efforts. I make it look to easy sometimes, though I still suck at faking feeling fine.
Today, I'm starting to realize I'm having more, not fewer symptoms, and I have to admit... (sigh)... this is a fibro flare.
My belly hurt all night, along with some nerve pains firing frequently in my right forearm for more than a day. During the night I also noticed my right knee hurting for no apparent reason. (My left one is usually the bad one.)
Today, I was completely wiped out and still dealing with vague abdominal pain with a weird lack of appetite at work. Toward the end of the day, I just wanted to go home and lie down.
When I got home, though, my bed was not available due to workers finally installing something in our master bath. I did not want to distract them, since the project has been going maddeningly slowly for the past few weeks now. I went to the computer room to try to relax.
Well, I didn't do it right. My back is bitching. Went out for a bite then finally, FINALLY, I'm here in my bed. I'm feeling these odd shivers of pain coming over me, trying to get my attention after I've worked so hard to ignore the signs.
Yes, body. I acknowledge that I am ill. I have a note on my desk to remind me to take beaks or you will force me to, by shutting down. I failed. Fuck me. It's time to pay the piper. Crap.
Friday, May 4, 2012
More Smiles and Some Food
Despite the stress of a bathroom remodel that is taking for freakin' EVER, I am still doing remarkably well, considering how awful I was just a few months back. I am very grateful for the break from a lot of the pain I'd gotten used to just being there and changing every so often, just to keep reminding me that it's there. If it wasn't for the fatigue part and some minor IBS issues that come and go, my persisting Delayed Pressure Hives on my damned feet, and the pains that just come on suddenly here and there, I'd almost consider this as some sort of "remission" from Fibro. I'm not completely pain-free, but knowing how bad it can be, this is pretty easy to handle... and I'll take it.
I've been celebrating my feeling better with baking projects and more smiling. I whipped up another pumpkin pie a few weeks back, from the last of our local farm's sweet little pie pumpkins.
(We froze the pumpkin puree after cooking it in the oven.) It's my fourth pie ever and I think I finally have it down, give or take some variability due to the moisture factor of the puree. (I judge it by eye.) If it's too watery, the pie just has a more pudding consistency to it in the middle. It's still delicious and a fine way to end your day or start it. Who knew vitamin A could be so tasty! If you'd like the recipe I use, here it is. I modified it slightly. I don't bother removing the last egg's yolk, and I substituted the spices for 1.5 tsp. of a cheap, pre-packaged, pumpkin pie spice mix I picked up last fall that works great. I just skipped the cloves. (Bleh!)
After the pie was gone, I decided to make Oatmeal Craisin Cookies. I have a big box of generic Quick Oats that I usually keep at my work desk for a quick lunch, in case I'm crunched for time and hungry. I brought it home and made a batch of the cookies using the recipe on the box and substituting the raisins for dried cranberries (craisins) which we always keep for snacks or adding to breakfast. They went fast and were tasty.
This is the second time I've made the cookies and I notice that it's a bit messy to mix up all the thick ingredients. On top of that, my largest mixing bowl is not a mixing bowl at all. It's a cheap, plastic chip bowl from the dollar store and it's flimsy. I used it for this batch, but I decided I needed to get myself a nice, durable, glass mixing bowl that is large enough for the job. I noticed the chip bowl's capacity was still on the sticker on the bottom: 3.5 quarts, so I set out to find something either that size or larger, but made of durable, clear glass.
I decided on glass because I don't like the possibility of plastic bits getting scraped into the food by the mixer blades, plus I wanted something nice that would last and could be microwaved if need be, and is dishwasher safe. I prefer clear glass because it makes mixing easier when you can see where things are sticking to the sides and need scraping.
I came upon a great little store designed for parents who want to avoid exposing their kids to toxins. (Shouldn't that be everyone?) It's called Mighty Nest. They sell a lot of baby stuff and kid toys, but also kitchen and cooking items. And this online store is where I'd finally found the perfect mixing bowl and another one just a bit smaller that matches it, too. They are great! They are just what I needed and are shaped to perfectly fit into my cupboards, too. They are located in Evanston, IL, just a few towns away, too, so I didn't wait long for them to arrive. Bonus! I wonder what I'll whip up next.
Finally now that we've gone through all the sweet stuff, here's a little healthy stuff. Remember Calorie Camp? I'm still logging foods and tracking my calories and weight there. The more I log, the more information I have to learn how to improve my nutrition and be healthier. As I started looking at my analysis and seeing a pattern - too little fiber and protein, too much sugar. So I got proactive about it. On workdays, for lunch, I have been having big, healthy salads from the nearby Whole Foods Market. Why not? Making salad at home is nice, but takes a lot of effort (I still have trouble with the prep sometimes) and the food doesn't long. The way Don and I shop, we'll have produce for a couple days, then nothing for two weeks or so until we go grocery shopping again. It just wasn't working out.
So one day, I went to the salad bar at Whole Foods for lunch and picked out some great salad greens with spinach, bell peppers, carrots, mushrooms, tomatoes, broccoli, red quinoa, chickpeas, hard boiled egg, and a little Parmesan cheese, topped it off with balsamic vinaigrette, and enjoyed a POUND of food for under 500 calories. If I want to go out and eat less healthy stuff for dinner, at least I know I got my veggies and nutrients in for the day. Now I go every day and am getting a more balanced diet more frequently. It works out great and is worth the $7.99 per pound I'm paying to not have to go grocery shopping, chop stuff up, and pack it up for work every day. I know the food is fresh, there's plenty of variety available, and I can decide how much of what I need at the moment, when I am feeling it. Win-win-win!
Oh and I bring my own reusable bag and keep a real (non-disposable) fork at work so I don't have to make so much trash. The box is not reusable, but I like to bring the salad back to my desk and eat it most days, so I grab a paper box from the stack and use that. At least it's compostable. I also keep an old cloth napkin in my desk so I don't use so much paper. I just swap it out and wash it now and then. (It's not that hard to be green. Every bit helps.)
So I'm doing okay, enjoying life and food and trying to stay positive about my world. I'm hoping you are smiling.
I've been celebrating my feeling better with baking projects and more smiling. I whipped up another pumpkin pie a few weeks back, from the last of our local farm's sweet little pie pumpkins.
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| Benia's Pumpkin Pie |
After the pie was gone, I decided to make Oatmeal Craisin Cookies. I have a big box of generic Quick Oats that I usually keep at my work desk for a quick lunch, in case I'm crunched for time and hungry. I brought it home and made a batch of the cookies using the recipe on the box and substituting the raisins for dried cranberries (craisins) which we always keep for snacks or adding to breakfast. They went fast and were tasty.
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| Oatmeal Craisin Cookies... YUM! |
I decided on glass because I don't like the possibility of plastic bits getting scraped into the food by the mixer blades, plus I wanted something nice that would last and could be microwaved if need be, and is dishwasher safe. I prefer clear glass because it makes mixing easier when you can see where things are sticking to the sides and need scraping.
I came upon a great little store designed for parents who want to avoid exposing their kids to toxins. (Shouldn't that be everyone?) It's called Mighty Nest. They sell a lot of baby stuff and kid toys, but also kitchen and cooking items. And this online store is where I'd finally found the perfect mixing bowl and another one just a bit smaller that matches it, too. They are great! They are just what I needed and are shaped to perfectly fit into my cupboards, too. They are located in Evanston, IL, just a few towns away, too, so I didn't wait long for them to arrive. Bonus! I wonder what I'll whip up next.
Finally now that we've gone through all the sweet stuff, here's a little healthy stuff. Remember Calorie Camp? I'm still logging foods and tracking my calories and weight there. The more I log, the more information I have to learn how to improve my nutrition and be healthier. As I started looking at my analysis and seeing a pattern - too little fiber and protein, too much sugar. So I got proactive about it. On workdays, for lunch, I have been having big, healthy salads from the nearby Whole Foods Market. Why not? Making salad at home is nice, but takes a lot of effort (I still have trouble with the prep sometimes) and the food doesn't long. The way Don and I shop, we'll have produce for a couple days, then nothing for two weeks or so until we go grocery shopping again. It just wasn't working out.
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| My big salad from Whole Foods Market. I added a baby octopus to this one for fun and protein. Isn't it cute? |
Oh and I bring my own reusable bag and keep a real (non-disposable) fork at work so I don't have to make so much trash. The box is not reusable, but I like to bring the salad back to my desk and eat it most days, so I grab a paper box from the stack and use that. At least it's compostable. I also keep an old cloth napkin in my desk so I don't use so much paper. I just swap it out and wash it now and then. (It's not that hard to be green. Every bit helps.)
So I'm doing okay, enjoying life and food and trying to stay positive about my world. I'm hoping you are smiling.
Tuesday, April 10, 2012
Feeling Pretty Good
Just wanted to post quickly that I've been sleeping much better lately, and have not been experiencing so much pain as my previous "usual" most days. I've had twitches and headaches and the odd pains here and there (like what's with this TMJ soreness in the right side today and yesterday?), and still get fatigued somewhat easily, but with some pacing and caution, I seem to be doing okay at the moment. It's hard to remember to notice the days when I'm not dealing with 17 strange pains or other symptoms, but I do believe that it's important to stop and appreciate the absence of symptoms, whichever ones they may be.
Today, I was reminded of the back pain I would typically experience during any given day when I had a sudden, sharp, muscle spasm today at work. It made me realize that I'd been working more days, and have been feeling more "human" recently. By that I mean that I can smile, I can walk at a reasonable pace most of the time, and I can talk to people about various topics without being constantly distracted by various pains and discomfort and my next move to try to relieve it. As a caution, I took a half-tablet of a muscle relaxant and moved around a little. It seems to have helped, but I feel it wanting to stage a coup. My awareness of it lurking there will remind me to continue move around a little more than usual to prevent it from flaring up, hopefully. I've learned so much from my years of dealing with these random symptoms!
This is reminding me, once again, of a task I've been putting off for a while now: update my WRAP. My WRAP is my "Wellness Recovery Action Plan" and in it, I have details about how to proceed, when my fibro-fogged brain forgets, when I recognize a trigger for a flare-up, a mild flare-up, a major flare-up, and everything in between. What has worked for me and what hasn't? This is my reference for me and anyone in my household who may need help figuring out what to do when things happen to a chronic pain sufferer like myself. It's good to have one just for yourself, too. But definitely keep it in sight, or it will escape you in moments of need. Take it from me. I have forgotten, plenty of times, what I should do next during times of crisis.
Once I make the updates, I'll be sure to share with you all so you can create your own reference. Having to update the information feels like a kind of a graduation of sorts. I had limited experience with Fibromyalgia when I first wrote it, but now that I've kind of been around the block and figured out my body a little better, it's time to improve it with more current information.
Things are busy at work, as always, and life at home is plenty busy as well. I do, however, feel like I am able to do more around the house lately. My personal to-do list, however, is not getting much shorter for some reason. I wonder if part of the reason I'm feeling better is that I'm forcing myself to do less after a long workday. I may have to test that theory out and see if doing one or two things in the evening is safe for me to do. My energy limits seem to be a moving target, so this will be an experiment.
I'm going to follow my own advice and do just one thing on my list tonight. Wish me luck!
Today, I was reminded of the back pain I would typically experience during any given day when I had a sudden, sharp, muscle spasm today at work. It made me realize that I'd been working more days, and have been feeling more "human" recently. By that I mean that I can smile, I can walk at a reasonable pace most of the time, and I can talk to people about various topics without being constantly distracted by various pains and discomfort and my next move to try to relieve it. As a caution, I took a half-tablet of a muscle relaxant and moved around a little. It seems to have helped, but I feel it wanting to stage a coup. My awareness of it lurking there will remind me to continue move around a little more than usual to prevent it from flaring up, hopefully. I've learned so much from my years of dealing with these random symptoms!
This is reminding me, once again, of a task I've been putting off for a while now: update my WRAP. My WRAP is my "Wellness Recovery Action Plan" and in it, I have details about how to proceed, when my fibro-fogged brain forgets, when I recognize a trigger for a flare-up, a mild flare-up, a major flare-up, and everything in between. What has worked for me and what hasn't? This is my reference for me and anyone in my household who may need help figuring out what to do when things happen to a chronic pain sufferer like myself. It's good to have one just for yourself, too. But definitely keep it in sight, or it will escape you in moments of need. Take it from me. I have forgotten, plenty of times, what I should do next during times of crisis.
Once I make the updates, I'll be sure to share with you all so you can create your own reference. Having to update the information feels like a kind of a graduation of sorts. I had limited experience with Fibromyalgia when I first wrote it, but now that I've kind of been around the block and figured out my body a little better, it's time to improve it with more current information.Things are busy at work, as always, and life at home is plenty busy as well. I do, however, feel like I am able to do more around the house lately. My personal to-do list, however, is not getting much shorter for some reason. I wonder if part of the reason I'm feeling better is that I'm forcing myself to do less after a long workday. I may have to test that theory out and see if doing one or two things in the evening is safe for me to do. My energy limits seem to be a moving target, so this will be an experiment.
I'm going to follow my own advice and do just one thing on my list tonight. Wish me luck!
Monday, April 2, 2012
Test Results
I had the following tests done to rule out other conditions:
CBC WITH AUTOMATED DIFFERENTIAL
ANA COMMON ANTIBODY SCREEN WITH REFLEX
CRP
ALDOLASE
CPK-CREATINE KINASE
RBC SED RATE
RHEUMATOID FACTOR , IgM, IgG, IgA
URINALYSIS
CYCLIC CITRUL PEP AB
XR FOOT BIL 2V
XR HAND BIL 2V
XR SACROILIAC JNTS MIN 3V
Everything was in normal range except:
1. Urinalysis shows Ketones (40), but normal should be negative
2. Left foot x-ray reveals "Lucent line across the medial aspect of the left navicular bone could be an old fracture or more likely an unfused apophyseal center." The doctor did a quick search and noted "Kohler disease" is what this is called. She examined my foot and pressed on the area to look for pain, but I didn't feel anything unusual there. I guess my bones refused to fuse when I was young.
Additionally, the x-ray of the sacroiliac joints did not find any abnormalities, thus I do not have Sacroiliitis, as my previous doctor clinically diagnosed (and sold me a belt for this condition).
NOTE: My left upper eyelid continues to twitch near the almost constantly throughout the day. This is day 8 of the twitching in the same spot. There is a slight chance of cyclobenzaprint causing twitches as a side effect, but I find it strange that this particular twitch has remained in the same spot and behaved the same way for so long. Usually, I get a twitch here and there and it goes away, maybe comes back in a different place. This is just odd.
CBC WITH AUTOMATED DIFFERENTIAL
ANA COMMON ANTIBODY SCREEN WITH REFLEX
CRP
ALDOLASE
CPK-CREATINE KINASE
RBC SED RATE
RHEUMATOID FACTOR , IgM, IgG, IgA
URINALYSIS
CYCLIC CITRUL PEP AB
XR FOOT BIL 2V
XR HAND BIL 2V
XR SACROILIAC JNTS MIN 3V
Everything was in normal range except:
1. Urinalysis shows Ketones (40), but normal should be negative
2. Left foot x-ray reveals "Lucent line across the medial aspect of the left navicular bone could be an old fracture or more likely an unfused apophyseal center." The doctor did a quick search and noted "Kohler disease" is what this is called. She examined my foot and pressed on the area to look for pain, but I didn't feel anything unusual there. I guess my bones refused to fuse when I was young.
Additionally, the x-ray of the sacroiliac joints did not find any abnormalities, thus I do not have Sacroiliitis, as my previous doctor clinically diagnosed (and sold me a belt for this condition).
NOTE: My left upper eyelid continues to twitch near the almost constantly throughout the day. This is day 8 of the twitching in the same spot. There is a slight chance of cyclobenzaprint causing twitches as a side effect, but I find it strange that this particular twitch has remained in the same spot and behaved the same way for so long. Usually, I get a twitch here and there and it goes away, maybe comes back in a different place. This is just odd.
Tuesday, March 27, 2012
Eye Twitch; Flexeril and Symptom Update
Since yesterday morning, my left, upper eyelid has been twitching intermittently throughout the day. It's nothing I haven't experienced before, and it's pretty mild, but it's still happening right now, and it makes me self-conscious when I'm talking to people, though it's not a big deal if they see it. Everyone's had this one time or another. I just wonder how long this stint is going to last.
According to several web pages about this, I need to rest and relax more. (Unwindsday, here I come!) I have been getting much better sleep since getting off Savella, though I've had some odd back-of-the-neck pains that wake me during the night. It's a stiffness kind of pain that restricts my movement and I have a hard time getting comfortable. I don't know what that's about. It's a bit scary at the time. Everything seems more scary in the middle of the night for some reason. Maybe my brain is not ready to think properly then.
I am going to visit my new rheumatologist this Thursday to find out all my lab test results (12 tests) and see if we can learn anything from them about why I'm experiencing Fibromyalgia. I'm also going to let her know how I'm doing on the new drug she prescribed, Cycolbenzaprine (generic for Flexeril).
With the new medicine, things started out a bit weird - the first night I used it, I woke up about an hour after bedtime, wide awake, and was just this side of believing that I might realistically die that night. I have no idea why. Perhaps my heart was racing or something, but I felt somewhat out of control, different. I lay there awake, pondering the impacts of death. It was very weird and it's stupid to think about now, after the fact, but I did really believe it. Finally, after some time, I convinced myself that perhaps this flavor of crazy was brought to me by my change in meds, and that the side effect may be something mental. I fell asleep and was fine in the morning. I lived to laugh about it.
Mostly I think the new drug is fine, it just made me feel a little anxious or something like that the first few days. I've been having headaches, too, almost daily for several days now, but I'm not certain it's the drug. It could be due to hormonal, since it's period time for me.
I've been experiencing some nerve pains recently, which tend to occur somewhat less frequently, and yesterday I felt a little puffy in the face, which is not a usual thing for me. That could be allergies affecting me, though, since my throat is a little hoarse today and I started sneezing and sniffling a bit yesterday. My allergies are LOTS better this year, though, compared to others, thanks to my years of desensitization injections. Finally getting the payoff for all that!
IBS is behaving nicely lately and I am able to feel kind of human overall these days. (That's the real test for how I'm doing.) It's been a couple weeks now and I am okay, for the most part. Various symptoms come and go, as usual, but at least I'm no longer taking sleeping meds AND a muscle relaxant - just the one drug now.
The warm weather is helping me to move around more. I'm taking more walks and getting more exercise, but I'm still having a hard time in between bouts of energy, when I feel worn out and confused. Hopefully the ups and downs will start evening out soon. I am having trouble getting the pacing right and am still overdoing when I am able to. :P I need to update my WRAP, too, since so much has changed since I last updated it. I'll post a link to that once it's been revised.
According to several web pages about this, I need to rest and relax more. (Unwindsday, here I come!) I have been getting much better sleep since getting off Savella, though I've had some odd back-of-the-neck pains that wake me during the night. It's a stiffness kind of pain that restricts my movement and I have a hard time getting comfortable. I don't know what that's about. It's a bit scary at the time. Everything seems more scary in the middle of the night for some reason. Maybe my brain is not ready to think properly then.
I am going to visit my new rheumatologist this Thursday to find out all my lab test results (12 tests) and see if we can learn anything from them about why I'm experiencing Fibromyalgia. I'm also going to let her know how I'm doing on the new drug she prescribed, Cycolbenzaprine (generic for Flexeril).
With the new medicine, things started out a bit weird - the first night I used it, I woke up about an hour after bedtime, wide awake, and was just this side of believing that I might realistically die that night. I have no idea why. Perhaps my heart was racing or something, but I felt somewhat out of control, different. I lay there awake, pondering the impacts of death. It was very weird and it's stupid to think about now, after the fact, but I did really believe it. Finally, after some time, I convinced myself that perhaps this flavor of crazy was brought to me by my change in meds, and that the side effect may be something mental. I fell asleep and was fine in the morning. I lived to laugh about it.
Mostly I think the new drug is fine, it just made me feel a little anxious or something like that the first few days. I've been having headaches, too, almost daily for several days now, but I'm not certain it's the drug. It could be due to hormonal, since it's period time for me.
I've been experiencing some nerve pains recently, which tend to occur somewhat less frequently, and yesterday I felt a little puffy in the face, which is not a usual thing for me. That could be allergies affecting me, though, since my throat is a little hoarse today and I started sneezing and sniffling a bit yesterday. My allergies are LOTS better this year, though, compared to others, thanks to my years of desensitization injections. Finally getting the payoff for all that!
IBS is behaving nicely lately and I am able to feel kind of human overall these days. (That's the real test for how I'm doing.) It's been a couple weeks now and I am okay, for the most part. Various symptoms come and go, as usual, but at least I'm no longer taking sleeping meds AND a muscle relaxant - just the one drug now.
The warm weather is helping me to move around more. I'm taking more walks and getting more exercise, but I'm still having a hard time in between bouts of energy, when I feel worn out and confused. Hopefully the ups and downs will start evening out soon. I am having trouble getting the pacing right and am still overdoing when I am able to. :P I need to update my WRAP, too, since so much has changed since I last updated it. I'll post a link to that once it's been revised.
Tuesday, March 13, 2012
Starting Fresh
I just saw my new Fibromyalgia doctor today. She is a Rheumatologist, recommended by my niece, who also has Fibromyalgia. It was overall a pretty good experience.
Despite the distance I have to travel to see her, I think she is going to be a good choice for me. She was very attentive, spent plenty of time asking me detailed questions about my symptoms and finding out which ones bother me most. She asked about my diagnosis, and it turned out she knew the doctor who diagnosed me, as well as my current general practice doctor.
Anyway, since my previous doctors didn't do any comprehensive testing to rule out anything that might explain the FMS, she worked up a list of comprehensive tests to do to check for several conditions. After examining me and giving me the dreaded tender point test and checking out my hands and feet for signs, she decided to add some x-rays to the test list as well. Get that? X-rays, not CT scans or MRIs. The least expensive but effective option for initial investigation. (Can you tell I've been medically abused?)
I was able to get all of those tests done today, while I was in the neighborhood, since the testing facility is near the doctor's office and they already had the electronic order on file. (Finally, paperless transactions!) The place I'm used to going for testing requires the doctor's paper order in my hands when I go for testing. Forget them!
I got blood drawn at the lab, peed in a cup, and then got my x-rays all done. All that and I didn't even have to process any insurance crap or even show my ID to anyone, unlike the place I usually go for testing. Bonus: the lab girl looked at my arms and said they both look "good" for drawing blood. Huh? I had to stop her right there and tell her that it's practically a joke that my arms get double-poked for blood or IVs. She had no problem. One poke and it was nice and easy. She was humble, too, saying that being dehydrated can make it hard to draw blood. I'll keep that in mind, but with all the times I've had it done and it went horribly wrong, I think she deserves some credit.
Getting back to the doctor's office, the staff there seems like an efficient bunch, too. For starters, when I got there, they had lots of papers for me to sign, but not fill out. (When your hands shake and hurt when writing, you learn to appreciate things like this.) Everything was pre-completed with my information and I just had to double-check it all and sign. Everything was correct, too. They are even taking care of transferring my file information from my previous doctor to this one, with a single form I completed and signed. Any previously done labs or notes will be available to my new doctor soon.
Oh yeah, my new doctor is having me try a different muscle relaxant to try to replace both the mediocre, chalky, bitter one I am on now AND my sleep medication. She wants me to try taking this med at night to do double-duty as a muscle relaxant for my muscle spasms and to help me sleep, since it can cause drowsiness. Once again, I'm pleasantly surprised to have a doctor try to reduce my prescription medications, rather than pushing whatever is new. What's more this drug has been around for a long time, is reliable, and is available in generic, so it costs me less than a newer, name brand drug would. On top of that, I'm replacing another prescription, so I'll get further savings there if this all works out. If not, I can always go back to using the sleep meds or trying a different plan. Bonus: the doctor asked me for my favorite drugstore and sent the order electronically to them. I picked it up on my way home.
I will be seeing her again in a couple weeks, after trying the new prescription and all the lab results are in. We will discuss whatever is uncovered by the testing and start fresh. If nothing new is uncovered, we continue to treat my Fibromyalgia as best as we can.
Despite the distance I have to travel to see her, I think she is going to be a good choice for me. She was very attentive, spent plenty of time asking me detailed questions about my symptoms and finding out which ones bother me most. She asked about my diagnosis, and it turned out she knew the doctor who diagnosed me, as well as my current general practice doctor.
Anyway, since my previous doctors didn't do any comprehensive testing to rule out anything that might explain the FMS, she worked up a list of comprehensive tests to do to check for several conditions. After examining me and giving me the dreaded tender point test and checking out my hands and feet for signs, she decided to add some x-rays to the test list as well. Get that? X-rays, not CT scans or MRIs. The least expensive but effective option for initial investigation. (Can you tell I've been medically abused?)
I was able to get all of those tests done today, while I was in the neighborhood, since the testing facility is near the doctor's office and they already had the electronic order on file. (Finally, paperless transactions!) The place I'm used to going for testing requires the doctor's paper order in my hands when I go for testing. Forget them!
I got blood drawn at the lab, peed in a cup, and then got my x-rays all done. All that and I didn't even have to process any insurance crap or even show my ID to anyone, unlike the place I usually go for testing. Bonus: the lab girl looked at my arms and said they both look "good" for drawing blood. Huh? I had to stop her right there and tell her that it's practically a joke that my arms get double-poked for blood or IVs. She had no problem. One poke and it was nice and easy. She was humble, too, saying that being dehydrated can make it hard to draw blood. I'll keep that in mind, but with all the times I've had it done and it went horribly wrong, I think she deserves some credit.
Getting back to the doctor's office, the staff there seems like an efficient bunch, too. For starters, when I got there, they had lots of papers for me to sign, but not fill out. (When your hands shake and hurt when writing, you learn to appreciate things like this.) Everything was pre-completed with my information and I just had to double-check it all and sign. Everything was correct, too. They are even taking care of transferring my file information from my previous doctor to this one, with a single form I completed and signed. Any previously done labs or notes will be available to my new doctor soon.
Oh yeah, my new doctor is having me try a different muscle relaxant to try to replace both the mediocre, chalky, bitter one I am on now AND my sleep medication. She wants me to try taking this med at night to do double-duty as a muscle relaxant for my muscle spasms and to help me sleep, since it can cause drowsiness. Once again, I'm pleasantly surprised to have a doctor try to reduce my prescription medications, rather than pushing whatever is new. What's more this drug has been around for a long time, is reliable, and is available in generic, so it costs me less than a newer, name brand drug would. On top of that, I'm replacing another prescription, so I'll get further savings there if this all works out. If not, I can always go back to using the sleep meds or trying a different plan. Bonus: the doctor asked me for my favorite drugstore and sent the order electronically to them. I picked it up on my way home.
I will be seeing her again in a couple weeks, after trying the new prescription and all the lab results are in. We will discuss whatever is uncovered by the testing and start fresh. If nothing new is uncovered, we continue to treat my Fibromyalgia as best as we can.
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